im back. again.
so i got forced to go to school on sunday again. didn't feel great.
i woke up in the morning at 7, then 8, then 9, then when i finally decided to get up even though i didn't want to, i started crying on the spot. i used to be able to hold back my tears and suffer through the pain but now they're coming out more often even when i'm around people.
then as i went to eat breakfast after crying, my parents accused me of not waking up early enough for school and i should be forced to wake up earlier. i yelled at them for accusing me of something i didn't do, then ran up to my room because i started crying and i couldn't stop.
then monday morning my dad woke up early so he could yell at me for not waking up, even though i explained to him that even if i didn't leave the house earlier than 7:00 to catch my bus, i wouldn't be late for school, but he continued yelling at me every 5 minutes to get up and out of the house.
the last thing i heard him say as i walked out the house was "disappear." i wanted to cry so bad but didn't and just bit my lip so i couldn't.
i went to school like normal on monday, but when i got on the bus to go home, i got really depressed and realized i didn't want to go home anymore.
when i got home i decided to make food and bring it to my room and not leave it till i go to bed, but then i heard my parents come home and i immediately started crying. i'm not thinking suicide thoughts because of this, just sad that my parents went through my stuff and accused me because they didn't trust me and that i'm crying a lot.
question is, what should i do? they don't let me do anything anymore unless i tell them and they approve it, but that happens with every family right? more worse things happened today and i hate very day of the week now except tuesdays and thursdays because of my parents.