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getting help might make everything worse

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

i’m depressed and keep thinking about suicide. i genuinely do not believe i will act on it - it is something i think about a lot, but i know i really don’t want to die. ive seen what it does to those left behind, and i just couldn’t do that to my family. i still keep thinking about it though, to the point that at times it is becoming intrusive. here lies the problem. i love my job/profession. i worked and studied very hard to get there. but - it is a profession with very limited tolerance for mental health issues. if the board/professional body i am registered with got wind of me having suicidal thoughts (even without intention to act), they may take away my registration and i will never be able to work in that profession ever again. i feel like i need help, but if i get help, i could lose my career. if i lose my career, the depression will spiral. i feel stuck. damned if i do, damned if i dont. i really don’t know what to do.
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always throwing up

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

i don’t know why, but i stress vomit. whenever i get really stressed or a flashback, i always throw up and pull my hair. it’s awful but i’m not sure how to stop. my friends are getting worried and i’m not sure what i should tell them.
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trust rant thingy

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● 💡11 Festive Brown Moose

i really thought i knew my cousin well, they’re kind, silly, goofy, and just fun to be around however i recently broke up with my (ex) girlfriend and they have been talking to her in secrecy (ig) about how much of a terrible person i am and i just don’t really know who to trust anymore. i feel guilty because i looked at my cousin’s phone behind their back because i had suspicions but at the same time i also feel aggravated and despondent. they were talking to my ex about how messed up and problematic because of my asd and burning up the gifts that i gave to my ex and i just- idk anymore. i really shouldn’t have looked at their phone aaaosjwowo. thanks for reading this far haha
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i hate my life

💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● 💡1 Deliberatley Round Apple

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feeling worthless

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

so i just found out that some of my co-workers think i’m really shit at my job. i don’t even know how the hell i should process this information. i try my hardest, i really do. i just feel so worthless right now. i’m trying my hardest and i’m still not good enough. this really hurts.
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tips for reducing reliance on sweet foods and instant noodles , toast

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

hiya , does anyone have any tips? im battling with depression right now . i use food a lot to cheer me up ; i cant believe it has turned into such an unhealthy thing i rely on. the flab around my middle has started building which is scaring me . how can i taper off this dependence on high calorie convenience foods and maintain my mood? i actually feel 'love' for instant noodles , the way it makes me feel , like a hug for my emotions . but i also get anxious and my appetite can be non stop
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i am the cause of my own depression

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

has anybody ever gave up after years of trying with anxiety and depression ... and then just given up, turned into a slob , escaping everyday into unhealthy and addictive , unproductive activities? i just have no standards for myself anymore, my character is bad - im a miserable person , lazy to do constructive things to build myself up again . i stay withdrawn and away from people. the few friendships i had are gone as i never shared that i was struggling ever with depression/anxiety just shocking how much of a mess i am and worse that i am almost choosing to be like that with my poor choices. this is the longest time ive ever been staying like this , i feel it is so much a part of me . i think ill end up committing suicide in the future if i carry on hating who i am. any pointers ? how did anyone build their self-love , self-respect up and change themselves and their life from anxiety/depression cycles ??
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lonely and confused

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

im lonely. i am so desperately lonely. i have no friends, no social life and no love life. my last relationship was 13 years ago when i was 23. i have been friendless for nearly 10 years. i have no children, although i have a fur baby who some days is the only thing that can genuinely make me smile. what sucks and is so hard for me to understand is that despite this loneliness, i never want to leave the house. i get huge anxiety just at the thought of going to any sort of social function/situation and most often talk myself out of going. even if i do manage to make myself go, i am almost always the first to leave - like i can’t get out of there quickly enough. i don’t understand why i do it. i feel like i’m cutting of my nose to spite my face, but i cant stop myself doing it. why oh why when i so desperately want to belong do i seem to do my best at running away from it? i just don’t understand.
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i want justice.

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

i witnessed a group of young people set their friend up to get sacrificed. they kept talking about how they were going to be famous and rich for a year and threatening me. they had me locked up in jail and then he died. they told the prosecutor i was harassing them when i have proof they were whorshiping the devil. they were doing one eye hand symbols and holding up their friends with masonic checker boards. i was approached by some of the weird people in their cult about becoming rich and famous. i was called a criminal, extradited, and then the judge and prosecutor hid the case and the arrest. i looked into the famous youtube guy they tried to set me up with and his dad died the same day the guy was sacrificed. in fact, multiple people died on the day he was sacrificed and they were trying to force me to go down there with them. i dont trust the police because theyre involved. i am havin suicidal thoughts. all the people who killed him have aged badly and look old asf. they went about their lives like they did nothing. all of them. they told me to move on to like i wasn’t abused during the process. idc about money or fame. i never wanted to be apart of it. im having nightmares again. i hate myself.
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hello site owner!

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

there are some problems here. i doubt that there are over 50 people talking 24/7. the thumbs-up button seems to have disappeared. conversations are suddenly cut off. thought i should let you know. i hope you are well and everything's cool on your side of the ether.
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god bless sis

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

my hb took covid test. came back neg. er said he had a tick disease. my sis didnt believe the er dr. i went to see my granddaughter. my sis got mad and has ghosted me for 3 weeks. i think she thinks it was irresponsible to expose them to germs but the drs dont think my husband nor i have covid. i'm mad. also, my daughter just found out she is pregnant. she is very young and my granddaughter is only 10 months. i'm worried about her bc the last pregnancy was super scary and that was before the world went nuts. i do not have time or emotional energy to deal with sis shit and i cannot commiserate over how shitty our world is bc i just want focus positivity in daughter and new in utero grandbaby and 10mo grandbaby and my husband who is getting over the tick thing. everything in life is so stressful. i'm stressing. i'm over reacting to sis thing..i think everyone on the planet is in react mode.i cant seem to get my anxiety under control.
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cant manage

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● 💡1 Quirky Sienna Herring

hi. seems like i am unable to manage with kids, home, social isolation, hubby.. just seems like everything is gone wrong. sarah klein
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i reached my limits..

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● 💡4 Rare Velvety Dog

greetings everyone , sorry for the long text. after 10 years dealing with anxiety and depression,i think i finally reached my limits, i’m 20y now, 21y in 22 days. i had a really bad high school experience, which included bullying, a toxic relationship, bad grades, parents got divorced, depression and suicide attempts. i spent those 4 years in a science course, that wasn’t for me. almost all my friends went to uni or atleast they are already “ahead”. i started my high school again, new school, new course (kindergarten and taking care of kids ) and luckily, new friends. last week i completed 11º grade, 2y so far in this school, made some good friends, my grades are high as well, i feel really welcome here and overall i’m very happy so far with this experience. still, my depression and anxiety kicked in now and then, i’m being followed by the school’s psychologist. so far she says that i have a big trouble about praising myself, it’s never enough, i see mistakes in everything i do, people congratulate me and my mind goes immediately to “ meh.. could have done better”. my current average is 17,6/20, i used to be a 11,2 student, barely passing. and still, i feel like that’s not good at all. we got quarentined since 13th march, and that’s when this really bad phase started. classes were the only way i had to forget about my problems, see my friends, spent time with them, tests etc. all those great moments disappeared in less than 24h. now i has home alone ( because my mom words during the day), in complete silence. although, the first 2 weeks were good to recharge my batteries because i was really tired, we had a lot of projects before. online classes started and my days got a little more occupied. aside from school i’m studying “mathematics applied to social science” to take the exam to access uni. i started studying 4 months ago, it was alright, but then we got some really big projects to do at home, so my time to study disappeared. these 3 months of online classes left me exausted, i never felt so tired in my life, i would fall asleep stressed and wake up stressed. i never had classes before about this subject that i’m studying, i’m pretty much teaching myself a 400 pages book in 4 months. i forgot pretty much a good part of what i studied before online classes, and my exam is in 15 days. i still have 60 pages to study, didnt practice any exam exercises yet. i’m emotionaly numb, i started having breakdowns constantly, i find myself spending more than 4 hours non-stop walking around the house thinking. its hard to eat, i spend more than 24h without eating anything, i need to cry myself to sleep, i feel extremely alone during the day, i just exchange a few messages with my friends during the day, same with my bf, which i’m more confortable to vent but most of the time his replies to my vent texts are “ i dont know what to say”, words aren’t his thing i guess, i already talked with him about this, and i’m getting tired of being always me asking stuff like “can i get some supportive words?”. i write messages to myself sometimes, i’m craving supportive messages that i write to myself just to keep calm for a few minutes… my psychologist convinced me to talk to a psychiatric las week, i got my prescription and i’m “ready” to start my medication tomorrow. although, i’m very scared of it, my familly’s constantly saying that they know other people that were on antidepressants and that they looked terrible, worse than before. they say that i could have do this without taking pills, everything’s just in head, i have a house, food, a caring mom and that i have no reason to feel like this because there’s more unfortunate people out there. i’m aware of that of course, but i dont think invalidating my proublems is going to help… last time i engaged in my hobbies was 4 months ago, thats what keeps me distracted at home, i draw a lot, and also like to write and play some games, but i feel so guilty to do that right now, like i’m just wasting my “precious time”. i never felt so scared in my life, i had bad cases of depression before and existencial crisis as well. but nothing this bad, i’m okay, 3 secons after i’m on mhy knees crying my eyes out. i might need to quit this exam thing this year, next year i cant take it because there’s a lot to do including internships. my only chance is after graduating hs, then i can have an entire year to concentrate in my studies and enjoy some free time. but then…i will be behind again, i’m going to enter uni with 23,24y and to my familly’s eyes, thats bad. my childhood friend is the only person who have been helping me everyday, she messages me, and tells me that quitting will not make me weaker, that i need to take care of myself first and whats the point on passing the exam if i will start 12º grade exausted, which can affect my grades and average to enter uni…i just feel so weak, everyone’s still saying “you can do it, i believe in you”, i’m just going to disappoint everybody..i want to pursue psychology, i want to be a psychologist, i want to help people like me, but right now i cant even help myself, starting to have doubts if i have the qualifications for that… i dont know what to do, should i quit for now? i feel like i’m just using energy that doesnt exist anymore.. thank you for reading this, i’m sorry for the big text.
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trans problems...

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

at the last few months i’ve been very confused about who i am. ive resized that i want to be a girl, but no matter how i look at it, i have always been a normal boy as a kid and even now i sometimes act too boyish, with makes me feel disgusted about myself, kind of like gender disphoria but with my personality. i tried to ask in other places, but people say to me that i should just be who i want to be, but i can’t just change my disgusting personality if i would just want to. and also, the same people that say to me that its ok if i was a normal boy when i was young and that the only thing that matters is what i feel now are transgender that felt like the other gender from their childhood. i couldn’t find anyone that i could relate to, and i just don’t feel like i fit in this world.
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is this normal?

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

i know pretty much exactly how i would take my own life. from the method, to the location, the note and even the music i would play. i know where i would source everything i need/want. i have all but planned every single detail. i don’t think however that i could ever actually kill myself. i know the circumstances under which i think i could (losing my entire family and being left literally on my own), but short of that, i have no actual intention to die. is it normal to have these thoughts without intent? does anyone else do this? i wish i had someone to talk to in person about this, but the second you bring up the s word everyone starts freaking out and treating you differently.
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binge eating

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

i've always struggled with overeating as a child. however when i got into middle school my overeating became binging because i started to lack control. ever since then, i've been steadily gaining weight. i use to just binge eat when i felt sad, depressed, scared, or anxious. but now it's become an everyday occurance.as a result my stomach is swollen everyday, and i always feel bloated. i just want it to stop. i've tried eating a normal amount but it won't work. for me it's easier to not eat at all than it is to eat smaller. so i think i'll try to fast for a month.
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wanting it all to end

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

i'm currently a senior in high school and i have no clue as to what i want to do after graduation.i have no talent, passion, dreams, or aspirations. which means that im worthless. i've been feeling this way for years but now im about at my breaking point. what's the point in living if you have no future? i'm not smart, pretty or talented. so im lackluster in every category. i just really want to kill myself. im tired of thinking. i'm tired of breathing. i'm tired of feeling.
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never give up

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● 👍63 💡10 💎1 Sandy Firm Butterfly

just a small remainder that we are not sure what's waiting for us in the next page of our life. but it's important to hold ourselves and try to face the situation life brings to us. if you are going through any bad phase please share it with anybody... anybody....be it one among us or be it any of your friends. try sharing your thoughts and feelings so that one can be with you when you really need them. try to be strong and not give up. we try our best to be there for you in whatever way possible. and for the listeners who are doing a brilliant job here. you guys are great... there are people who need us and we should try our best to help them out...no one knows what one might be going through...what might be making them depressed and sad so anyone who is reading this, weather you are a listner or a venter to this site...try to help anyone who needs us... try to be there for them.
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insomnia, cant sleep routinely deterioriates mental health and energy levels

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Anonymous

hi all, since childhood ive always joked that i was an insomniac as many nights i found my mind very active and not sleeping til 4am when i sart hearing the birds. but since 18 when anxiety became a problem and ive been trying to do a degree and work placements , these sleepless nights are causing me to be so tired and depressed. ive never been able keep a concrete 'normal' sleep pattern. my mind wants to wander at night and i keep going bingeating now. i get so sleepy, moody and tired in the day. has anyone got any concrete tips on what has helped them create a consisent good nights sleep? thanks
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3:)

details 💬︎ reply 💎︎ ● Naturally Sturdy Mallow

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