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ok so my parents are in a weird kind of relationship where one moment they'll be living together and joking and telling each other they love each other, and then the next there's constant yelling and arguing and dads gone back to his flat. this obviously isn't a very nice relationship to witness, and it especially wasn't nice to witness while on a family holiday a few months or so ago with them and my brother. lots and lots of nasty words were said to one another at some point during every day we were there, and it all built up to the last day, when we were going to the beach. dad was driving the car around the roundabout and trying to get back onto a main road, except the road was crowded af and another car was also trying to get onto it at the same as us. mum really loves the beach and was eager to get there as soon as possible, so she told dad to make sure the other car wouldn't get in front of us in a rather not-so-nice tone. dad started saying how the other car was already kind of in front of us and we should just let it go in order to be more safe but mum just kept on nagging him. the other car managed to beat us to it and mum yelled at dad once more. then dad lost it and started yelling back at mum. lots and lots and lots of yelling, all very awkward to have to listen to. eventually the car arrived at the beach and everybody but dad got out. mum walked around on the sand for a bit before calling her mother and a friend to pick us all up from the place we were staying at. we walked back to the car and acted normally around dad on the ride back. after packing up our shit we walked out the door without telling dad where we were going and to where mums mom and friend were both parked and we got driven home from there. when we were back home mum told everybody what had happened, except she told it in this bullshitty way where she made it sound like dad had attacked her out of nowhere. the worst part was that my brother agreed with her and everybody else didn't bother to question her. its been pissing me off ever since and i've not been able meet with dad because i still feel bad about leaving without a proper word. very cringe.

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i feel like no matter what i do is wrong. i think i'm in love with my best friend (we are both female) and i'm having problems with my parents

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hey so haven’t been on here in a while things were going okay for me for a lil bit but for the past few days i haven’t felt like myself. i just got a new phone bc my old one broke and i decided to text this girl that i used to talk to back in february. i liked her a lot but i fucked things up the first time so i wanted to try again. but what i didn’t think about is how hen we talked the first time i was suicidal and i guess talking to her brings me back to that time in my life. i was hung up on her for over six months and i cannot break things off with her. since we started talking again i have felt like i’m dead and haven’t done much of anything except watch tik toks on my phone bc i just can’t being myself to get up and do anything. and the worst part about all of this is that but i can’t talk to her about any of this. and things are so awkward with us and we can’t keep convos going and that causes so much anxiety for me bc of how much i like this girl. i didn’t get over her the first time and idk if i’ll be able to a second time

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its never easy to find a job especially with associates degree graduate like me. 2017 i graduated from community college i'm trying to get away from retail and move on to full time jobs that offer benefits just recently i don't if i should or not apply for this position practice assistant-cancer ctr-office practice, my major in associates degree is communications i plan to go back to school to get bachelors degree, i'm 28 years old and sometimes i wonder is it late to do internships i need encouragement

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this girl in my english class made a comment about stds, as i’m finishing up my paper she comes out and says it’s not like i have aids or herpes and i quickly move my seat asap, like seriously you don’t say stuff like that because people are gonna think you have it

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anyone staying in california, i want to discuss how the country is. norms and rules, mostly south francisco.how is the locality, costs and everything else. place in general. p l e a s e r e v e r t.

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i’ve tried to commit suicide many times. i feel so lost and sad. sometimes, i carry my acne pills in my backpack, with a suicide letter. i don’t know why or when i started to, but i just do. anyway, my crush found the letter. he’s the only one who knows. for what felt like forever he just stared at me, until i ran away. now he talks to me normally, but keeps looking at me out of the corner of his eye. i don’t know what to say to him. please help.

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i want opinions on this. i have a perception that relationships must be kept private unless the couple are sure and committed. what do you think?

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i have a binge eating disorder but i really want to lose weight. and the other day i was looking a pictures of insta models and they all looked so skinny. https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/influencer-says-tapas-cocaine-diet-stay-thin-heres-thats-not-healthy-210417445.html do you guys think that it's possible to obtain a body like this without the usage of drugs?

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how do i tell my roommate he is disgusting. like filthy and dirty and has the worst hygiene. he literally stays in the living room all day on the video game and finish it up cuz he hasn't showered in weeks. and that's no lie. he smells horrid. doesn't wash his clothes. doesn't wear underwear. goes to the bathroom and pees on the seat and even leaves poop marks and smudges on the seat. and just walks out. literally. i'm so sad that i'm not even exaggerating here. doesn't wash his hands. doesn't clean. and he got sick and coughs everywhere and doesn't care he's getting germs everywhere.he gets bloody noses and bleeds all over the bathroom and doesn't fucking clean it up!! he's the nastiest white dude i've ever seen. and all white dudes i've seen have been gross in some way. and to top it all off he eats all his food after grocery shopping in a few days then starts to eat all mine. he's lactose intolerant so he drinks his no lactose milk and still drinks all my regular milk and ice cream. then blows up the bathroom. i've grown to despise him. i know exactly why his gf left him. and i'm dipping out of here as soon as i get my next housing situation secured. i'm not paying rent cuz his rich boss pays it. cuz he cries every five minutes about how hard things are for him. honestly i'm not moved by his bs. i just want to get away from him. he's beyond a liar. and lies to all his friends on online gaming that he has so many girls chasing him and that's a lie!! if any other girls saw him they would be disgusted as i am. how should i tell him i'm disgusted or should i just keep my mouth shut as i've been doing. i'm trying. but i don't know how much longer i can take. i needed a place to vent. and i'm sure he doesn't know this site.

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i had a happy life in the beginning... preschool was going great, til fast forward to a month later, people hated me so much they broke my arm... the were kicking me, and heard it snap. another time in 4th grade, a person dragged me to the school bathroom( chill i didn't get raped) and cut my arms...it hurt...and now i figured out i identify as non-binary, but i like girls.... the problem with that is my parents are against all lgbtq, when i told them i liked girls and was non-binary, they slapped me.... i haven't eaten in 5 days because my parents won't let me... i have depression, multi-personality disorder, anxiety, anger issues.... and i go way too hard on myself, i know this seems dumb, but i'm starving, and tired, and sad.... does anyone have any solutions?

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i keep getting anxious, and most of the time, there’s no reason to be. i know that i easily get worried or stressed, so i make a list and try to get the tasks done asap. but recently, even though i’ve finished the things i need to do (study for test etc.) i still feel tense, like theres something heavy in my chest and i can’t get it out. thank you for reading through it, i just want to rant, and it kinda helped.it’s not that very serious like the others here, but yeah.. have a nice day

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the talker option didn't really give that much help when i tried it, so might as well give this a shot. i'm sorry if i end up writing up a bunch of rambles that lead to nowhere but it's 1 am here and i'm tired so please bear with me. for the last few months ever since summer break i've suddenly started having violent tendencies and in general got more agressive as a person. i don't get how or why it started since i'm usually a very passive person and try to keep myself out of argument or fights. at first it started small, just the urge to lash out and blatantly tell the other person to fuck themselves or even shout at them if they did something even a little irritating like make a stupid joke, but then it got slowly worse with me starting to loose patience and passively agressively urging to person to continue on with what they were going to say if they yawn in the middle of the sentence or get stuck trying to remember what they wanted to say, all the while barely holding myself from trying to beat them fiercely with either my fists or whatever blunt object i could find in our area. i'd have little fantasies okay through my head in that instant and i even feel the ghost of my hand actually doing it which scares the fuck out of me since i realize that i was actually close to doing it. it doesn't really matter to who i'm talking to, it could be my friends, classmates, random people i don't know, my parents. pretty much everyone gets me to this state. i haven't gone through with severely hurting anyone yet in my life. i somewhat manage to hold it back but i've taken a few swings at my friend's when we were going out drinking and they were intoxicated while i was sober as it just relaxed me and i knew they probably wouldn't mind since they'd think i'm drunk aswell. but due to us not really going out like that often i sometimes have the urges pop back up out of no where when i get home and i take it out on my dogs by kicking them and holding them down while i punch them a few times in the guy or face. i feel extremely shitty about it after and even hold them and try to comfort them but in the moment it's just so refreshing. the only things that manage to calm me down are either completely isolation or music. it just brings peace to my mind but if i stay isolated for too long i start feeling like a lonely piece of shit and think about how much of a failure i am. i haven't told this to a single soul because i'm scared of judgement, because i know they'll think i'm some sort of psychopath in the making. i really don't know why these tendencies started just recently going through my head but they progressively get worse and worse to the point i'm subconsciously thinking about doing these hideous things when i walk sometimes and realize it after a minute or two. i know to some these things may seem like not that big of a deal but it's really messing with me and don't know what to do at this point.

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i can’t sleep anymore im so tired. physically and mentally. when i go to school, i’m tired. i constantly want to take a nap. when i want to sleep after school at home, i’m fully awake and don’t want to sleep anymore. when it’s time to sleep, i can’t sleep no matter how hard i try. when i wake up, i want to sleep more. in the afternoon while doing work i want to take naps. i’m just so tired. my eyes hurt. i do get some sleep, but the most i’ll get is 6 hours on a weekday if i’m really really tired and about to pass out, but normally i get around 4 hours. if it’s a weekend, i can get around 6 hours of sleep. my body always makes me wake up after 6 hours of sleep on a weekend. 8 hours if i’m lucky. on sundays, my body works the same as if it were a weekday. if i manage to get 8 hours of sleep, i want to sleep more. the only time i felt fully rejuvenated was when my parents were gone and no one in my house was going to come home that day. i was able to get a full 8 hours of sleep and feel bright in the morning.

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i don't feel good about my body. bumps,lumps,oddities and all. nevertheless a girl gotta get herself up and look at the positive things to go with the day,week,month, year. i freaking hate that i have darker underarms due to some chemical reaction in my teenage. it brings down a lot of confidence. i hate that most dresses have minimal coverage to underarms. i've let of so many wonderful tops,gowns and stuff just for that reason. i've had my cousins,beauticians and classmates tease/berate about them. today , ive gone to this new aesthetician to get them waxed, who made small talk and then asked me about the pigmentation. i've told her about the chemical stuff to which she smiled and said "we were idiots back then, using random stuff on ourselves because our mates told us to" i was amazed coz that's the first time ever i heard this kinda answer! she proceeded to show me her dark underarms. then told me "i know you'd feel a lil less confident about it but hey,it's our body, we gotta love it!" i've never ever felt better in my entire life about them until now. it's like i'm coming to terms with it. god bless that lady ! i know it's a very very miniscule worry in the big picture but she gave me that lil boost of confidence which i needed. note: i'm critical to boot at myself, all the other ladies are gorgeous! <3

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i feel a bit embarrassed to be writing this. please bear with me. i have this friend who is one year older than me. i am obsessed with her. my mind is constantly on her and i just can't stop wishing that she would notice me for once. everyday in school i search the hallways for her, and whenever she says hi or even looks my way i feel ridiculously happy for the rest of the day. when she doesn't notice me, i have this strange feeling of disappointment. i keep texting and emailing her, keep trying to get her attention. i just can't stop. i feel like i'm being needy and i'm probably being really annoying to her. deep inside i know this is unhealthy, but i really can't stop thinking about her. it's not a crush or anything, i'm not lesbian. i just want her to see me. can you help me stop this obsession?

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its tough to say this me and my sister aren’t speaking to our mom after threatened us not to tell our father her new occupation as a stripper .very disgusted at our mom is how we feel but not only that it’s very inconsiderate of her to even do something so risky too the point like is it really worth taking your clothes off

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greetings to all halloween is all around us, its my favorite holiday, i celebrate halloween because it's my favorite day,  i am gonna dress up frankenstein costume, i bought it from https://www.reecoupons.com/view/spirit-halloween, what will you be doing for halloween, preparation has done? what theme and costume have you selected?

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im back. again. so i got forced to go to school on sunday again. didn't feel great. i woke up in the morning at 7, then 8, then 9, then when i finally decided to get up even though i didn't want to, i started crying on the spot. i used to be able to hold back my tears and suffer through the pain but now they're coming out more often even when i'm around people. then as i went to eat breakfast after crying, my parents accused me of not waking up early enough for school and i should be forced to wake up earlier. i yelled at them for accusing me of something i didn't do, then ran up to my room because i started crying and i couldn't stop. then monday morning my dad woke up early so he could yell at me for not waking up, even though i explained to him that even if i didn't leave the house earlier than 7:00 to catch my bus, i wouldn't be late for school, but he continued yelling at me every 5 minutes to get up and out of the house. the last thing i heard him say as i walked out the house was "disappear." i wanted to cry so bad but didn't and just bit my lip so i couldn't. i went to school like normal on monday, but when i got on the bus to go home, i got really depressed and realized i didn't want to go home anymore. when i got home i decided to make food and bring it to my room and not leave it till i go to bed, but then i heard my parents come home and i immediately started crying. i'm not thinking suicide thoughts because of this, just sad that my parents went through my stuff and accused me because they didn't trust me and that i'm crying a lot. question is, what should i do? they don't let me do anything anymore unless i tell them and they approve it, but that happens with every family right? more worse things happened today and i hate very day of the week now except tuesdays and thursdays because of my parents.

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hello. i will try to keep this as short and put together as possible. my life is a bit of a mess right now. right now i am 4 months pregnant and i have an appointment for an abortion on friday. i have no money to get to the appointment and no one to be there with me after the appointment. so after i get it done i will be alone. i am getting the abortion because i can't take care of it let alone take care of myself. i'm pretty bad at being an adult so i feel that ending it now is the best thing for me. the main problem that i'm having right now is being severely depressed and alone. i'm sitting in my apartment right now that i share with a roommate but he is gone to see his family and i'm here laying in the dark watching mad men. even though i have to do this i still tried to be as grateful as i can. i guess what i'm trying to say is i don't know where to go from here i don't have any family with me i don't have any friends with me me and the baby dad stop talking i don't have any support system whatsoever. after i get the procedure done i'm getting another job to work at getting myself a car. how can i stop being so alone and lonely and where do i go from here?