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i am currently in a very bad spot and was planning to leave home forever. recently found out, my father is planning on spending a lot of money for my sake, for a chance to make me get better. but one of the reasons i've been planning to leave is because i have been a horrible burden on everyone, especially to my family. should i take the chance to recover or should i leave before he spends and stop being a burden on them?

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it's been really hard to deal with these intense, dejected feelings and act like i am fine. i want you to know that these emotions are not because of you. your actions do affect me, but i am the reason that i blow them out of proportion and convince myself that you do not love me anymore. i unfortunately need a lot of reassurance and i am at a very vulnerable and sensitive time of my life. i cannot explain it.. but i feel terrible for putting you through this... we did have our issues and you've fixed them, but i still don't feel better about myself. so it has to be me. i must be the problem.... and im sorry for making my problems your problems. it is not your responsibility to take care of me.. i love you and i think you deserve better than me.

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my parent thinks i'm useless and i know that already but it hurts so bad. i just think its better for me to not exists. i have everything pent up inside and i know it's not good but what can i do. i'll never be good enough. not for myself, not for parents nor for anyone. i am not brave enough to end this but i am so tired of felling bad about everything. i just want everything to end

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i hate myself so much. every single part of me. i hate how i look and i hate my personality. nothing has ever felt right for me. regardless of how hard i try, nothing changes, nothing ever gets better and, honestly, im sick of it. im sick of everything and, most of all, im sick of myself. i feel so stupid, so disgusting, so wrong and worthless. i dont feel love, i dont feel loved. hell, at this point i can barely feel... anything. i tried taking meds, seeing a therapist, i tried meditating, i tried socializing more, i tried everything. didnt work out. im so tired, i just wanna die.

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this isnt something like important and i should probably talk about more pressing issues but right now im sad about this so thats what im going to randomly vent about. here goes... i love this rapper called nf... and i mean he's amazing and i want to hear him live so bad... but i live in islamabad and the chances of him coming here are none... and like by the time i grow up... i plan to move abroad... hopefully that'll happen... but by the time i do grow up he'll probably be old and wouldnt be rapping from what i know... and idk that just made me real sad... i'll never get to see him or hear him sing in person... sorry for the rambling but yeah...

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you know me, you have known me for a long time, you know my wishes and dreams, i know you and your wishes and dreams. sometimes it seems like we're never on the same page as each other as to where we stand. you said you would never cheat on me and if you were going to you would tell me first. personally honestly i sometimes feel like i am just a sex toy for you, you just don't seem to care. you once told me that you were never really planning on marrying me but yet you asked me, this is why i feel like a sex toy also you said later on that you only married me because you felt like your mom forced you to marry me because we were "engaged" for so long. somehow from all of this i feel this way like i am just being used for my body. when i asked you when you really told me you didn't really want to get married, i felt sad, and hopeless like i crushed your dream and i felt like someone you could just dispose of if anything went wrong. the fact that we work so well together and have worked well together for as long as we have been together shows you that we're meant to be. we just have our problems that we have to sort through. i honestly am not sure why i feel this way, maybe i am just depressed or something, like i am no good and you can just easily get rid of me, even though we're married. i personally feel like when you said you would never cheat on me, the fact that you look at naked women behind my back and cam sites because yes i still know you do that shit and i don't appreciate it, it is just another form of cheating.

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posting just to wish all the wonderful people in here trying to make the world a better place. (oh we definitely can!) hope this christmas brings you cheer , peace ,health and prosperity. hope you feel a little lighter, a little happier and a little more forgiving. hope life be kind to you. hope you keep smiling and showing the struggles who's the boss. hope you turn out to be the best version of yourself. last but not least, hope you find a hand when you are in need. merry christmas and a happy new year.

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i keep bursting into tears for literally no reason. i hate it. i can’t even control myself at school anymore. i almost did it in front of my parents. i’ve been super stressed out lately, and for months would cry myself to sleep. but, the past week i’be been fine, until three days ago. i hate not being in control, and just can’t stop crying. please help.

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ever since i was little, i've had issues with binge eating. however, in the past year or so, it's gotten way worse. because of it, i gained so much weight. i eat when i'm stressed, sad, anxious and depressed. and sometimes i even eat out of boredom! i feel like a failure and i really don't know what to do. i feel guilty every time i eat. and i'm sorry for my parents for being such a fat daughter. i literally am at the point where i am ready to starve myself.

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ok so my parents are in a weird kind of relationship where one moment they'll be living together and joking and telling each other they love each other, and then the next there's constant yelling and arguing and dads gone back to his flat. this obviously isn't a very nice relationship to witness, and it especially wasn't nice to witness while on a family holiday a few months or so ago with them and my brother. lots and lots of nasty words were said to one another at some point during every day we were there, and it all built up to the last day, when we were going to the beach. dad was driving the car around the roundabout and trying to get back onto a main road, except the road was crowded af and another car was also trying to get onto it at the same as us. mum really loves the beach and was eager to get there as soon as possible, so she told dad to make sure the other car wouldn't get in front of us in a rather not-so-nice tone. dad started saying how the other car was already kind of in front of us and we should just let it go in order to be more safe but mum just kept on nagging him. the other car managed to beat us to it and mum yelled at dad once more. then dad lost it and started yelling back at mum. lots and lots and lots of yelling, all very awkward to have to listen to. eventually the car arrived at the beach and everybody but dad got out. mum walked around on the sand for a bit before calling her mother and a friend to pick us all up from the place we were staying at. we walked back to the car and acted normally around dad on the ride back. after packing up our shit we walked out the door without telling dad where we were going and to where mums mom and friend were both parked and we got driven home from there. when we were back home mum told everybody what had happened, except she told it in this bullshitty way where she made it sound like dad had attacked her out of nowhere. the worst part was that my brother agreed with her and everybody else didn't bother to question her. its been pissing me off ever since and i've not been able meet with dad because i still feel bad about leaving without a proper word. very cringe.

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i feel like no matter what i do is wrong. i think i'm in love with my best friend (we are both female) and i'm having problems with my parents

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hey so haven’t been on here in a while things were going okay for me for a lil bit but for the past few days i haven’t felt like myself. i just got a new phone bc my old one broke and i decided to text this girl that i used to talk to back in february. i liked her a lot but i fucked things up the first time so i wanted to try again. but what i didn’t think about is how hen we talked the first time i was suicidal and i guess talking to her brings me back to that time in my life. i was hung up on her for over six months and i cannot break things off with her. since we started talking again i have felt like i’m dead and haven’t done much of anything except watch tik toks on my phone bc i just can’t being myself to get up and do anything. and the worst part about all of this is that but i can’t talk to her about any of this. and things are so awkward with us and we can’t keep convos going and that causes so much anxiety for me bc of how much i like this girl. i didn’t get over her the first time and idk if i’ll be able to a second time

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its never easy to find a job especially with associates degree graduate like me. 2017 i graduated from community college i'm trying to get away from retail and move on to full time jobs that offer benefits just recently i don't if i should or not apply for this position practice assistant-cancer ctr-office practice, my major in associates degree is communications i plan to go back to school to get bachelors degree, i'm 28 years old and sometimes i wonder is it late to do internships i need encouragement

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this girl in my english class made a comment about stds, as i’m finishing up my paper she comes out and says it’s not like i have aids or herpes and i quickly move my seat asap, like seriously you don’t say stuff like that because people are gonna think you have it

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anyone staying in california, i want to discuss how the country is. norms and rules, mostly south francisco.how is the locality, costs and everything else. place in general. p l e a s e r e v e r t.

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i’ve tried to commit suicide many times. i feel so lost and sad. sometimes, i carry my acne pills in my backpack, with a suicide letter. i don’t know why or when i started to, but i just do. anyway, my crush found the letter. he’s the only one who knows. for what felt like forever he just stared at me, until i ran away. now he talks to me normally, but keeps looking at me out of the corner of his eye. i don’t know what to say to him. please help.

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i want opinions on this. i have a perception that relationships must be kept private unless the couple are sure and committed. what do you think?

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i have a binge eating disorder but i really want to lose weight. and the other day i was looking a pictures of insta models and they all looked so skinny. https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/influencer-says-tapas-cocaine-diet-stay-thin-heres-thats-not-healthy-210417445.html do you guys think that it's possible to obtain a body like this without the usage of drugs?

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how do i tell my roommate he is disgusting. like filthy and dirty and has the worst hygiene. he literally stays in the living room all day on the video game and finish it up cuz he hasn't showered in weeks. and that's no lie. he smells horrid. doesn't wash his clothes. doesn't wear underwear. goes to the bathroom and pees on the seat and even leaves poop marks and smudges on the seat. and just walks out. literally. i'm so sad that i'm not even exaggerating here. doesn't wash his hands. doesn't clean. and he got sick and coughs everywhere and doesn't care he's getting germs everywhere.he gets bloody noses and bleeds all over the bathroom and doesn't fucking clean it up!! he's the nastiest white dude i've ever seen. and all white dudes i've seen have been gross in some way. and to top it all off he eats all his food after grocery shopping in a few days then starts to eat all mine. he's lactose intolerant so he drinks his no lactose milk and still drinks all my regular milk and ice cream. then blows up the bathroom. i've grown to despise him. i know exactly why his gf left him. and i'm dipping out of here as soon as i get my next housing situation secured. i'm not paying rent cuz his rich boss pays it. cuz he cries every five minutes about how hard things are for him. honestly i'm not moved by his bs. i just want to get away from him. he's beyond a liar. and lies to all his friends on online gaming that he has so many girls chasing him and that's a lie!! if any other girls saw him they would be disgusted as i am. how should i tell him i'm disgusted or should i just keep my mouth shut as i've been doing. i'm trying. but i don't know how much longer i can take. i needed a place to vent. and i'm sure he doesn't know this site.

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i had a happy life in the beginning... preschool was going great, til fast forward to a month later, people hated me so much they broke my arm... the were kicking me, and heard it snap. another time in 4th grade, a person dragged me to the school bathroom( chill i didn't get raped) and cut my arms...it hurt...and now i figured out i identify as non-binary, but i like girls.... the problem with that is my parents are against all lgbtq, when i told them i liked girls and was non-binary, they slapped me.... i haven't eaten in 5 days because my parents won't let me... i have depression, multi-personality disorder, anxiety, anger issues.... and i go way too hard on myself, i know this seems dumb, but i'm starving, and tired, and sad.... does anyone have any solutions?