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greetings everyone, i have been suffering from depression for some years now. since september i've been feeling better, because i changed schools (restarting my high school all over again), my grades are better and i made a friend. it's summer break, and i'm feeling super depressed again. i have almost no one to talk to, much less listen to me. i always give everything i have to help others, but when i need help i feel that people give the least effort to help or just ignore it. at night it’s very difficult to sleep as i start thinking, i get anxious and it becomes a vicious cycle. i can't feel motivated to do the things that i like. i think everything i do is not worth it, including myself. i’m starting to wonder how everyone’s life would be if i never existed, i don't know what to do anymore… i feel so useless, alone and on the verge of having an existential crisis…

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hello there, i hope today's been kind to you! ♥ i just wanted to share something i've been working on, as i've always had a hard time socializing, since i was young as i cope with being neurodivergent, since my irl best friend died, it's been harder to be social, though, i've tried reconnecting with an old high school friend, an old friend i made from being in a quinceanera & making a new online friend & reconnecting with them, though, it seems we've all fell out & i don't have any offline friends, i've noticed in my attempts i try through face-to-face, apps, social media, or messaging, i often end up in a situation where i left the last message & i feel uneasy about double-texting, so neither one of us reaches out, or it seems that our friendship doesn't progress & falls out, i'm unsure what to do, especially if we exchanged contact info face-to-face, i feel we're not on the same page, emotionally, which may be a factor... tl;dr: as someone who copes with being neurodivergent & the loss of my best friend, i've found myself without friends in my city, and in situations where i feel our conversations & friendship come to a stalemate, where i don't feel comfortable double-texting & unsure of what to do to maintain a healthy, happy friendship both online & irl, thank you for reading & i hope today's been kind to you ! ♥

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lately i've felt lonely, i'm overthinking things, i haven't seen my friends in a while and i miss them, but at the same time i'm dreading meeting them. i've kind of isolated myself and now i don't want and know how to stop this. i want to stop it but at the same time i don't. because i know isolating makes me feel super relaxed, but also too relaxed that i don't want to leave it. but it alse makes me kind of sad and lonely. i mean it's not like i'm completely alone, but still....plus, i know my friends are gonna be curious about what i was doing, but i did almost nothing. nothing exciting or important happened and saying that to them makes me feel bad, partly because i have a feeling they think i'm lying or don't want to share things, but mostly because i feel shitty and like they pity me or expecting me to tell them something, so i often try to find something interesting i can tell them, sometimes i even do things i don't feel like doing at the moment (nothing serious, don't worry), so i have some story or something...idk, all this is kinda bothering me most of my life. is it weird? i don't know exactly how to explain it....

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i don't know why but i want to be a tragic hero. i keep trying hard to gain sympathy but when i get it i don't feel any better. i'm not sure what i really want. i also keep thinking of another world where i really was someone with a tragic past. i also have another problem. whenever one of my friends are feeling down, i don't know what to say to them. they sometimes tell me stuff, knowlingly or unknowlingly, and i don't know what do i say back to them. lastly, i wanted to tell one thing. almost every time i make a thread, i always leave it without giving back a response. not because i don't want to but because most of the time i don't know what to write back. so pls forgive me if i don't get back to you. also, thank you

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i genuinely want to help them do the work but i can’t because they do it better or maybe i cant do it at all.and this is a voluntary work.im afraid that they might think that im useless and i leave all the work to them...

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my father tends to take his religious belief way too serious. he talks about it at his job to others saying he studies the word of god there’s nothing wrong with that and it’s great that he does it on his free time, but it comes to work sometimes i feel like he puts himself in that situation whether this is right or wrong you don’t mix religion with work because not everybody wants to hear nor do they believe in the same beliefs like my father

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why is it that when somebody posts a question on here at times nobody wants to answer why is that.

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i'm trying to talk to someone but no one is connecting with me

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hi, i have been depressed for some time, im getting better. (nobody knows im depressed) but i noticed scars on some of my friends arms and other friends of me have a really hard time as well, i really want to help them. but i dont know how?? what can i do to help them?

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i am constantly sad and overwhelmed i am never happy with what i do i don’t love myself nor i feel proud of myself. i am in my second year at ucsb and i honestly don’t know what i am doing i feel so out of place. i just wish i could give up but i can’t do that either i feel so lonely and tired of life

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i don’t know how to express this but for me as college graduate with associates degree in communications. me at 28 i feel like i shot myself in the foot for not doing internship earlier. do you feel that internship can be for anybody or is it too much

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hi so i’m a student and i’m having this rly rly important national exams this year so naturally i’m rly stressed out and it’s only 2 months away on top of that i’m having major family issues and it’s clearly not helping at all and lately i just feel rly down and can’t seem to get anything right i rly feel like giving up at this point and keeping my grades up is a major struggle i’m just a hot mess atm crying has also became my daily routine so i’m rly in need of some advice

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i don’t feel i should have to explain myself as to why i dont like this person if i’m not interested in that person why even bother asking what my reason i dont have to tell you

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both of my parents are really emotionally abusive. i’m constantly told that i do nothing right, that i should “just get over it” whenever i’m feeling down, called stupid and lazy no matter how much i try in school and at home. normally i just put up with it, i’ll be old enough to move out in a few years, but it got to be so much recently to the point where i’ve just hidden in my room most of the time, trying not to talk to anyone. i don’t really know who to talk to but i found this place...

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cant stand two people when you’re around people like that definitely gotta be careful they’ll show another side of them that you’ve never seen before depending on the crowd you see them with, but when they’re by themselves it’s totally different story

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i have a master's degree, was a top manager of a company for several years, then the company got sold and we were all laid off. 7 months and i am still unemployed. i have applied to over 20 places a week, one week was close to 50 and up to fifty miles away. sunday was my last unemployment payment. i am a single mom, really feel like crying tonight.

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im 14 and i never told no one that im transgender. the problem is that im very shy and cant even make myself to take a bus alone. its really important to me to tell someone and fast, but i cant make myself do it if someone can help me i will really appreciate it

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i don't know what to do with myself. i never feel like i'm good enough or have the capability to be good enough, and hearing "it gets better" hasn't done me any good. i'm a mess and it's like nothing works. i'm not normal and i'm not capable like everyone else is. my boyfriend is just as depressed and so relying on him isn't an option right now because he needs me to rely on, so it just feels like i've got nowhere to go. i'm running out of options.

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i feel like i wanna scream out loud saying that i wanna die cause i can't take it anymore.. facts about me: married to woman have 3 kids i'm gay have financial problems career disorder don't like my job haven't got promoted for the last 10 years just transferred to another department on the same or lower postision which means no promotion for the next 4 years

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i don’t know why everytime i go to bed my heart starts to beat i feel really concern

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my depressions coming back full force and its bringing my eating disorder with it. the main issue is that ive been taking some drugs as punishment when i eat too much. i dont really know what to do because now im strugling with not taking them.

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i am usually a laid back confident person but it feels like i make the same mistakes over and over again. its like i am too far gone with a history of falling short and mistakes that never leave me and i cannot forget. but when i do forget.. then it comes back stronger when i am feeling good. it makes me just want to start over and leave everything again. i want to make things work but i am reminded of all my shortcomings. it is an endless cycle. any advice?

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i am currently struggling with the loss of interest in most of my life, home, people, activities...i am dealing with some of the worst current challenges that anyone could dream of and well i think i'm slipping away. i've never felt like this and have overco.e many horrible things. just looking g for some insight and helpful advice

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this is the most funniest/stressful problems that i’ve had so far. theres this thing that the school wanted to give us, and the teacher told us to get one. i dont know what has gotten over me that time but instead of getting one, i just passed it along. the worse part is i didnt have memory of it and thought i had one.some time passed of stressing about where it went, and realizing what really happened.i became more stressed because i need to get one from the teacher now. now this teacher is very strict and idk how i should explain my situation to her cuz... it seems so stupid to be real. they’re selling it in a bookstore but my friend said to not buy cuz it’s expensive... i dont have any idea how to confront this situation...

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ever had those moments where you know that it’s nothing to freak about and just need to go with the flow cuz you can’t to anything about it anymore,yet you can’t help but think about the bad things that could happen.. people say to just “calm down” and to “stop overthinking” yet i can’t. i guess it’s already in my system

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i really don’t know to do at this point my stepmom is really starting to get on my nerves and i’m trying everything within me not go off but i’m about too.me and my fiancee are going to look at rings and she wants to give me her ring i’m like no you have your own ring okay i need to have my own it doesn’t make sense she wants to be incontrol of everything i’m already losing it because of her

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my friends convocation will be held on this september, which means they are officially graduated diploma. andddd here i am.. stuck :) they told me to attend the ceremony so we can take a pictures together but... tbh i really dont wanna go, im afraid people will looking at me orrr judging asking me why i cannot graduate with them, why i extend one more semester, why it is hard for me to pass the subjects when everyone can do it. i wanted to come and the same time i dont wanna come. im just afraid.

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big boy ben gave us an awesome site to share love and connect through the remedy of our mental difficulties. virtual hugs and kisses for everyone. big boy ben is forever a legend in our hearts. he is our leader forever.

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love it's a drug never use it to use somebody only in a pure heart can you find true love everything else just fades away it's like life was gray before someone like you came into view i came out of my cage and iv been doing just fine but the tiger is sleeping on the inside with all the money in the world the love cannot be mine in paradise surrounded by 369 destiny is calling me i want it all i'm falling asleep i'm breaking the wall i'm stirring the drink i'm giving everything away for the love that i believe to be true it's in everyone one of you ~love is real

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i often hear it a lot whether couples should or shouldn’t sign prenup papers. for some reason some tend to make a big deal outta it unless both couples can agree on who gets who, they automatically assumed that if a prenup is involved theres a prediction that the marriage won’t last

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if your addicted to weed alcohol problems family issues depression just beep me up

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at this point i’m not sure if i can keep myself altogether because my professor emailed me explaining that he wanted to have a sit down chat about wednesday’s test apprently he showed me somebody else paper along with mines saying both of our tests are the same.i immediately didn’t hold back first of all i would never anybody none of my answers okay i’m not covering for nobody however that person sitting next to me copying off my answers,

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theres no point in being married anymore it’s over hate that feeling obviously he wants the marriage he didn’t wanna work anything out

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i wait for a long time to find a match to talk to and nothing .. i really need to vent and i hardly find anyone :(

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because of my job i havent lived in the same place for more than a year in about 5 years due to this i'm constantly leaving people and meeting new people and now i feel like i dont have a support system i've been so sad lately and starved for finding people who share my general interests the person whose company i enjoy the most has a long distant girlfriend so i cant hang out with him without feeling guilty and that weighs on me i've tried finding other people who share my interests but its discouraging when everyone i meet thinks the music i listen too and the shows i watch are lame i'm really not that unique i know i'm just somehow looking in the wrong place i don't feel comfortable talking about it with anyone i know and i'm just holding a lot of stuff in idk what to do

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read to yourself... what is it to be depressed? are you stressed? have you been put to the test? you say you can't compete with the rest you are surrounded by people you detest you lay in the room and make a nest a suicide button you wish to be pressed but no one told you that you are the best you are strong you are smart you are courageous and you for sure have heart just be aware... what you do, say and think it bends your mentality it's okay to cry to hate to think of brutality pondering life and questioning morality in the end you must just let it go and before you know one little poem will change your reality! ~you are not alone and you are loved

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idk i dont wanna say it like online since i dont want people to think im saying it for attention and 'cause im not really that close with the people i wanna tell rn. im just writing fanfics and stuff to distract me and it's working, i just wanted to put this somewhere. venting doesnt work well for me if it's just some private note so here you guys go i guess. :p

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hi there sometimes i feel left out of my family it feels bit like i’m just not important to them. my parents compliment my bothers and do exactly the same thing and they just complain that it’s not how they wanted to be and my bothers just treat me like trash. it makes me feel alone when i’m at home it hardly feels like home.

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it’s not like i cry everyday.i hardly cry at all, but there are times when i feel embarrassed or maybe pressured ,my eyes will get watery and my cheeks will burn up ,and eventually people will notice,and i’ll be more embarrassed and self conscious about what people will think about me.i try to play it cool but deep inside i feel kinda lame for tearing up for small things. and i know it’s nothing to cry about, yet i still do. are there any advices to not tear up easily?

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since when did marriages become business arrangements i hate that

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envy that’s one thing i cant deny at all i do get envious at times and it’s not good at all for me to act like that just being honest about it

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stop deleting stuff

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i have been completely depressed with life since my dad died and it doesn’t help that my marriage has been a mess for the last 3 years. i am so lost, i somedays consider leaving this world or just get in my car and drive away from this life.

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do you ever feel like you live in ur own universe? people outside don't fit in there .. like maybe u can share some thoughts colors shapes from ur world .. but in the end of the day no one actually fits in there it's both beautiful and confusing maybe beautiful cause when i think about it .. i feel this amazing feeling regarding how we as human beings can be this unique and different yet in the end can hug and inspire each other confusing cause it gets lonely sometimes in the end .. i dunno ?

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i hate it every time i hear this all the time if you’re gonna cheat just do it in peace. you shouldn’t be cheating on your spouse at all

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relationship teaches u how to survive in life and friendship teaches u how to live life but i don't have both so how can i survive n live life

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i think i should stop trying to follow a hopeless dream such as pursuing arts. there are a lot more talented artists out there anyways but why is it that i keep going back to it no matter how hard i try to just give it up. its hopeless no one would even care if i gave up on it i think no one would even notice i left arts. im happy because of doing art but im also feeling empty and insecure at the same time. i dont think i should pursue this. its just not cut out for me for all the time i spent trying to improve it just doesnt help. it stays the same. i worked so hard yet i still cant improve and i dont think i can ever surpass the ones that have 'talent' i know its not talent but its hardwork but i dont think i can be as hardworking as them. i want to try harder i dont want to give up but its just not right. im not happy anymore doing arts..... it feels just like a burden to me now but i dont ever want it to be like that. im... just going to give up its pointless following my so called dream

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i'm done can't take it anymore things are getting worst don't wanna live anymore feels like killing myself

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i got a shirt delivered to me from my cousin which was but when i saw saying on it that said fuck fear i was like okay then, she gave me the note encourage your kid to overcome their fears. i’m like the first thing that came through my mind are you really serious what example are you setting that’s not right

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i'm done breathing, i'm done talking, i'm done eating, i'm done living i cannot live like this anymore. i try man, i really do... and know what? i always try to do my best. but why do things always go wrong? it seems like its supposed to happen, i mean, me killing myself. i dont really think i will ever get over these awful thoughts, so

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new to this site and have no clue how it works or gonna help me. i just i dont know i really wish to find someone to talk about me......i'm 17 ,female by the way really want to have a friend i think i'm trying to survive with a hope and loneliness makes it worst

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so many things , can't stop crying , can't live like this anymore 1) have alot of friends but i chose few who i used to share now they ignore tooo i have no friends to talk tooo ... if i talk they r not interested 2) i had many relationship each had some issue an ended this time i don't wanted to be in any , but then it happened first 2 months was the best , then it changed ignorance came in ,meeting stopped and then there was no communication at all , he calls me only if he has work or needs money , he meets only to drink n party , he never ask how m i , how was my day nothing at all after telling him i have got anxiety issues , stressed out, getting into depression and i just wanted to talk to him , but still he ignored he always tells m busy at work but he is out with friends or talking to other girl i wanted a stable relationship and this was the last i can't keep changing bf can't handle the social status every where i go , people ask me about him i can't just answer everyone , i can't carry fake smile to work everyone things m the strongest i give advice to people even if they call me at middle of the night i come to help but im in this state i have no one to answer anytime i need help i don't know who will i call who will i seek for help i need someon to talk i need to cry out loud i need to get over this i need help i can't take it anymore i don't feel like living ....

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such a wonderful day oh will it stay as long as you look to the sky never say goodbye for all those that fear life is in your ear for all those that cry and you ask yourself why you think you are denied each time you try be thankful think bountiful and one day your life will be full of good days and they will stay dedicated to brighten your day!

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i don't know what else to say. so many people around me yet i still manage to feel so lonely and my thoughts don't help as well. i feel like no one cares about me, heck there is no one to care about me. i have no real friends, zero social life and my mind hates me. so basically my life is giving me hell rn. however, i do try to be positive about everything but sometimes i just can't help but cry at how pathetic my life is and i know it will get better but when? how much longer do i have to wait? i just want to stop feeling like this, like i'm drowning.

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lost my best friend 💔

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hi, i'm new here but really need some insights. so i have this friend who used to be one of my best friends. we've drifted a bit because she got these new friends who i don't really fit in with. now i don't interact with her that much and when i do, it's always soooo awkward. i miss the times when we were very close and i want to fix that friendship. how can i do this?

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my sister is thinking about getting into the porn industry. the first thing that came through my mind is like wtf are you serious i know you’re not that dumb to wanna to sign up to get into a business that risky, it’s not what they think it is. i told her if you’re gonna do it you need to know what you’re getting yourself into a lot of young girls 18 and 19 yrs old get into for the money not realizing that there’s a lot of shit that goes on behind the scenes i know it’s not my choice to tell her no but hoping that talk to her about it will make her have enough sense to really think about long it

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how is it that i’m the fool when i ain’t the one that got escorted by security to leave on graduation when i was sitting in my cap and gown, my fathers gf who was acting like a nut call herself bringing alcohol she started acting crazy as soon as she took a couple of sips. the first thing i got was a text message from my father saying it’s not what you think it is like really so i suppose to just brush this off like it’s nothing? like seriously it is a big deal because not only did she acted like an idiot she embarrassed, my mom was so heated at my father because she said to him you gotta this mess not me or anybody else, gf the nerve to get mad at me all because security escorted her out as to think i caused no bitch you did that to yourself

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i don't have any sympathy for addicts. that might sound harsh, but i don't give a f***,"if they're in pain because of drugs, it's self-inflicted. you know what you're doing when you take it.

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i am transgender and asexual and i really want to share it with someone that i know but im too shy to do this and i dont know what to do. i would be very happy if someone can help me

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my sister just told to me that she started stripping to bring in some extra money. shes in college and wants to make sure everything is paid for. i can understand how expensive college is and sometimes desperate times calls for desperate measures my mother doesn’t know about it, she only told me about it i’m like i won’t say nothing but if you doing something else on the side as well besides dancing you keep it on the low

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the one thing i hate the most is when somebody tries to tell you go to this place or go to that place especially when it comes either to hair salon or nail salon if you’re familiar or use to going to whichever place you’ve been going too, if they’re professionals and they take pride in what they do hey why when if they’re giving you good high quality service. i can recall one incident where my cousin had the nerve to say to me you know my beautician does a better than yours like really. ive never met your beautician so how can you say to me she does a better job, like don’t tell me what to do

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its hard for me to let it go but i need to most importantly i take ownership of what i did i’m not perfect and i don’t expect holding onto hurts

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my fiance and i have been together for 2 years now and we have been living together since 8months into our relationship. my fiance used to love being intimate and physical with me. always held my hand told me about her day and the general need to be around me and to touch me. she used to love sex she couldn't keep her hands off me, but for the last 6 months or so she wont let me hold her or let me initiate sex and neither does she. she does sleep in my arms, but i feel like a pillow. she denies me every time i want to be intimate and has some sort of excuse. i tried talking to her about it but she keeps saying that shes fat which is not the case or that she is too ticklish for me to touch her, which cannot be true because it wasn't an issue before. when i ask her why she doesn't want me to touch her anymore she says im imagining things and when i ask her why she doesn't want to have sex anymore she gets upset and tells me that everything isnt about sex, which i agree with but she was always the one even more into it than i was. what im trying to get at is that its not like her to not want these things anymore. i asked and no definite answer was given that i am at the point where i just feel like its over, like she had a personality change or i just dont know her anymore. without the intimacy like we had before i just feel like a roommate. i dont know if im seeing this wrong or if something much worse is going on that i dont know of, but i dont know if i can live like this with her.

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hello, everyone! it's nice to see so many new people joining the site. because of the influx of people i'd like to lay down some ground rules in order to keep this forum focused and on track. first of all, if you want to reply to a comment you must reply to it directly. new posts targeted directly as a reply to a user will be removed. in addition, new posts that are asking questions that are off topic, meaning those that do not concern mental health or are not asking for advice in some way, will be removed without notice. posts that are undescriptive and vague will also be removed. for example, a one word title and a brief statement as details does not encourage discussion and is not allowed. i hope these new rules will further improve the quality of responses and better assist those seeking help. take care, everyone.

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i just recently received a gift from my dad’s girlfriend.not sure why but it’s very odd that all of sudden she wants to send me something, we barely speak and barely get along i don’t know what she’s trying to do either she wants to fix the issues with me or is she using the gift as a way of trying to buy her way outta what she did either way something’s off

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one particular question on here i jusr saw was quite difficult where one person kept on dwelling on cheating on their drivers test exam, stating that only certain questions they had difficulty on is understandable.i mean it’s not excuse for it but at least admitting to something you did wrong not too many people do that. however that person telling the other to seek professional consultation thats foul

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whats the difference between an opportunist and a con-artist

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me and one of my cousins don’t get along at all. i wanna like punch this girl in her mouth for making that comment talking about hope your baby comes out charbroiled like really yo

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i get a decent amount of sleep--like 8ish hours. same as i have for the past 7 or so years. nothings changed about my routine, except for that i'm working from home. but even that was since about a year ago. i've only started feeling especially tired recently. i rarely leave my apartment, so i don't think it's physical activity or socialising thats making me tired... what is it? help. a tired friend.

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i just went off on my dad’s gf cause she call herself trying to pick me up from school when it’s not her job to that she’s not on the pickup list. i don’t care how mad she got and same for my father i didnt care neither because not do i not get along with my sisters also don’t get along with her neither

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i ready to go off on my husband this man had the audacity to install a tracking device in my phone. i’m asking him what the hell for. if anything i should asking what the hell are you doing that you don’t want me to know

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so i posted before, my ex-on/off suddenly started avoiding me 2 weeks back and last week blocked me on whatsapp after i asked an explanation. he unblocked me 5 days later. in the meanwhile i didnt contact him via any other means. today he says he is sorry for acting like a psycho. my q is how do i react. i said ok.. he didnt reply back? shud i give him a taste of his own medicine? if im rude i will push him away. if i act as if nothing happened, he will take me for granted and again accuse me of being clingy. so what do i do?

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i still having a feeling of guilt for cheating on my drivers ed test however it was certain questions i had the most difficulty on.even though i passed it still makes me wonder should i go back and tell the dmv what i did or let it go, i cant what i did i wish could but i can’t

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so literally in the last say 4 years i have had like 5-6 break ups. someof them not serious, a couple of them serious. and im not saying i dont make any mistakes but the breakups werent even cos of me fighting the reasons were- ex came back, still likes the ex, was cheating on me, ex threatened me- i dont want anyone etc. everyone makes mistakes in a relationship, and i have seen more controlling domineering and obnoxious ppl have stable relationships.. then y doesnt anyone choose me. why does everyone just scarper at the first opportunity, though they will be swearing eternal love like literally one night before. im tired, my self esteem is in tatters. it hurts to rise up broken, try to mend my heart and get it broken again. im in despair. im on meds fr depression too. please help.last breakup was so bad i went into acute attack, lost weight in like 15 days had continuous anxiety and tears. im so scared im not worthy of being loved and im a failure and ill die alone. i feel i cant go on

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dont know what to do at this point my former ex boyfriend is wanting to get back with me but i’m not sure about it. i just feel like he’s got something up his sleeve of why he’s desperate of wanting another chance, i believe there’s a lot more as to why he wants to talk with me after what he’s put me through don’t know

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so i was dating this guy for 2-3 months.. we were both attracted to each other and he seemed to want to make it more serious. i was older he didnt mind. everything was good when one night his ex came and threatened suicide and pregnancy. i happened to be in the vicinity and he saw me cry. but i dint interfere between them. he told me he wants to breaak up and not date anyone. however after that incident, his ex moved on and he kept in touch with me. (she wasnt pregnant). he kept hanging out with me wen i asked and half the time on his own. i was working towards being a very good friend and then see what happens. once when i was out of town he constantly texted me etc. till last month he said i was his favorite person after his bff. suddenlt since this month(he has gotten busy and is in the last year of his degree), he kind of avoids me,citing he is busy but gos hanging out with others.. even a junior girl. he said he is irritated since i ask to meet him thrice a week.. when i checked i used to just check up and text him about his day and never ask to meet.this went on for 2 weeks.. and i texted him to ask whats going on and why he avoids me like the plague. cos till last month he used to send friendly texts about his day and now he doesnt text at all. he said he is working, he doesnt want to make the effort and im clingy and blocked me on whatsapp. i respected that and didnt call or sms. what i dont understand is till 2 weeks earlier im his close friend and now he acts like im a psycho stalker? i never made my attraction to him too obvious, rather he only used to make it obvious in front of his peers. i havent gone or made a scene or kept calling him or anything. it really hurts me.i just text routinely like i used to before and he got irritated with that too. i dunno whats going on.. and why over 1-2 weeks he disregarded my friendship too. one week he hasnt unblocked me and i havent contacted him. how do i react?

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marriage sometimes is not always easy to deal with especially if you have a husband like mines who is controlling and very domineering. i feel like i can only blame myself for allowing him to take over it’s getting to the point where i’m done however i’m on the edge of filing for divorce just don’t know how much time i can hang on for

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what makes people think that beautiful women don’t get cheated on in relationships when they only think that descent women are usually the ones that get it the most?

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when you dance with death it comes to you. i don't cry when people die. i just understand dat if you don't wanna die stay out da way and don't do sh-t to get you killed early in your life. we all gon die one day i just hope da reason is for sum i stood for.

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alright so shdsfdfsfdfsfdfsfds i'm currently like recovering from self harm and it's been like a month or like 3 and a half weeks since i last cut!!! there was also this part of recovery that i like to call 'emotional numbness' because it's not really an emotion. it's like a lack of emotion. i hated getting it- which led to me wanting to be sad again- but i'm doing a lot better! that emotion-thingy is a lot less frequent and i relly less on things online to keep me happy! speaking of which, i'm getting more happy recently (and not for the wrong reasons)! i'm super proud that i can finally accept the fact that what i did was unhealthy. i never accepted that before. i'm so glad websites like these could help me whenever i didn't want to speak to real people. thank you to anybody who ever left a comment on my insights. each one of you were very kind and helpful. and to anyone who is starting recovery, you can do it. it has it's downsides, but once you start really recovering, you'll be very happy. i know i sure am. <3

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hi! i have some problems to communicate with others, mostly when using app like whatsapp, facebook messenger, etc. when i using them, i feel like i being kind of cold or don't really demonstrating what i really feel, so i kind of feel bad about using them, principally whan talking with someone i'm not very familiar or when asking a favor (not sure if it's the way i write the messages or that because i don't use emojis, i don't like them). sorry for who is reading this, i kind of beated around the bush, but let's talk about the problem. this year, i'm trying to participate in a scholarship, but i need a recomendation letter, so i asked to a teacher and she gave me a positive response. last year i had asked, so i asked again, thinking it was easier to her, because she already had an idea about the letter. since then, passed almost two weeks and i didn't received any sign about the letter, so thinking she perhaps forgot about it, in a weekend i wrote a message, something like: "hi, how is the letter?". after sending it, i kind of regreted about how i wrote it (don't know why, but every time i send a message to her, i feel like i need to rewrite it again), but i received a sign that she read the message and didn't answer it. already passed one day since this happened and i don't know what to do. i feel like i need to apologize about the way i wrote the message, because i feeling really bad and sad about it. was i wrong about sending the message, is she angry about it, or is she so busy to talk about it? i really apreciate anyone responding it thank you very much

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is it selfish for single mothers not to have their children’s father on child support. some mothers have them paying while other moms don’t want to or feel the need to put them on it

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i wanna fuckin kick my cousin’s ass for posting personal information about my sister’s miscarriage on social media. i when off the wall why would you even post something like that when she’s grieving.

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whats the difference between a psychologist and a therapist

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they always say things are better left unsaid oh definitely yes but other times you want to know what was said so you can defuse the issue !

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i did it guys i finally passed in my exams. i did it. i'm so happy, thank you all thank you for everything thank you for being with me all this time thank you for keeping me motivated i'm really thankful to all of you i was in really depressed state if it weren't for you i couldn't have made it through. i almost lost everything friends family everything after failing i had no idea how to go on where to start but it's over now. thank you guys thank you so much

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as a mom of two daughters who the fuck are you to tell i should wear g-string or a thong on the beach with my young daughters when i dont feel comfortable doing that, a lady on the beach came outta no where and told me why don’t you show your buttcheeks off i’m like excuse me seriously lady i dont know you and second of all don’t tell me what i should wear if you feel comfortable enough to show your naked ass kudos to you sister but not all moms are the same

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to anyone who knows about like all my other insights, i don't cut anymore. i have some school therapist thing too now i guess? but whenever i'm just sitting at my pc with nothing to do i just miss going on tumblr and looking at thinspo and other people's cuts. i miss relating to angsty fanfictions and i miss the want to cut. i don't get it. i lost the want to all of that two or three days before i started therapy and i've only felt the cutting one once or twice. i miss being sad. i don't get it. this isn't even for attention too, i miss it because of how it feels kind of?? idk but i wish i didn't miss it.

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whats the difference between a sugarbaby and an escort

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ive been dealing with this for days now and a part of me wants to brush this off, but then it’s like i have to deal with what i did but making a stupid choice by using my cellphone when i was taking dmv drivers ed quiz. there were some questions i had the most difficult on other questions i had no issues with getting right my thoughts on this is should i just brush this off or should i deal with the stupid choice i’m not excusing myself for what i did

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is fentanyl detox worse than regular heroin detox

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i just recently passed my drivers ed exam good in all, however i had difficulty with certain questions i seemed to have an issue with, wrong thing i did was searched through my cellphone for the answers even though i cheated on my exam with certain questions like said i had the most difficult on, while other questions i had no problem getting right what should i do go back or just live with what i did

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i told my parents i'm having sex and they seemed okay with it, my family is decently open about sexual topics, but then i told my boyfriend that my parents know and he freaked out. he said "he's annoyed" and honestly i don't know what to tell him. i don't enjoy lying to my parents for extended periods of time and if i asked my boyfriend before hand whether i should tell them he would've said no and then i would've had to continue lying to them. how do i help him understand it's not that big of a deal and to not start a big argument over it?

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i can't talk to people without freezing up and becoming a strutting mess even though i don't have a stutter. i even have the same problem with online chatting. i have a hard time putting my mind together when talking to someone so conversations with me are just awkward. though it's a little better when written down it takes me forever to put it down and check it over and over again until i feel it's right and even than i still hesitate to send it. my heart starts hammering away in my chest, i get cold, i feel short of breath, i start to get teary eyed. if i mess up in any way while talking to someone, whether or not it's a small not noticeable thing or not even my fault i feel like it is my fault. which leads to me just shutting myself in and berating myself. i've tried talking to someone before. different people 3 times. but it never lasts long, less than five visits and nothing gets done no matter how nice they are because of how i am when it comes to talking about anything personal related to me and i always feel like i'm taking a space for someone else who truly needs it way more than me. (though the last therapist i talk to prescribed me some sort of medicine though i don't remember what it was. ) even if it's about my day i still feel as though i'm saying something stupid and should shut up before i drive a person away. the only time i can make myself do something i would be to frighten to do is if i needed to help someone or if i'm irritated/ angry. (ex: if my friend needs something and is too afraid themselves to get it or if an innocent person is being picked on.) however, if i'm being picked on it has to go too far before i stand up for my self. ( going from embarrassed of the situation to angry) i'm sorry that this is so long. i just don't know what's wrong with me. i've talked about anxiety and other things with my mother but i've never been diagnosed with anything. i just want it to stop so that i can do the things i want to do with my life without having to prepare a speech before hand.

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hello there, i hope today's been kind to you ! to sum up, i lost my best friend and my only irl friend to suicide last summer, and this is just a vent about it, there's no need to read it, though, thank you so much for checking this out, and i hope the rest of your day will treat you well... <3 since i lost my best friend, i still blame myself for his suicide since we had a falling out, and he blamed himself, and had a hard time coping with everything on his own, although he was abusive, i don't blame him for what he did since he never really got to learn what a healthy relationship is. although it doesn't justify his actions or how unhealthy our friendship/relationship was, however i was still his only support despite him making me the only one to be his therapist in a sense, and he pressured me into saying yes to him repeatedly. i don't really care about his abuse or manipulation anymore now. i just miss him every day so much, no one can replace him and nothing can truly express what it feels like... his mother particularly was the worst in his treatment towards him and his sister and his home life wasn't the best, much like mine. although his father and sister were kinder to me, they did not really acknowledge how close we were, none of them did. he let me know i am his closest and dearest friend to him in the world, yet to his family, i felt more like a stranger and someone his mother always wanted me to be away from him due to her being unaccepting of other races/religions outside of her own... i just miss him so much and i wish things didn't turn out the way they did. i try my best to not blame myself though his mom still tries to manipulate me for answers to things she doesn't want to hear, and i wish they got him the help he needed, they neglected him there. and the last time i cried at home, my father put his hands on me and my mother just told me to "get over" his suicide... they're emotionally absent, so i have to cry away from home, so when i have to stay at home, it just really hurts since i can never express myself and only he understood how close we were, it really hits home when my parents just say get over his suicide without me even bringing it up... i just, i don't know, it just really hurts to still not be supported after all this time, my family acts like he never existed when he was and is the only friend i ever truly had irl and my best one, and none of my online friends know how to support me, especially since i can't express myself about this at home, so it hurts so bad, and now i'm too scared to get close to anyone else because of the trauma of losing him, i'm very grateful to have medicaid and access to therapy, though, it took me being put on a legal hold as a minor and a threat of cps to finally receive it, my best friend turned 18, so there was no repercussions to force his family to help him and that hurts my hearts... other than that, i don't know, i just needed someplace open to vent about this since i can't cry at home or get any support at all, when i try to support his family, his mother blames me and hurts me, and it hurts too much to talk to his sister, so just thank you to anyone who listened to this, it means a lot to me... <3

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i don't plot out murders on specific people, i don't want to hurt anyone specifically. i enjoy thinking or extremely disturbing thoughts of violence though. is this okay? if not how to i fix it? i enjoy the thoughts of someone (anyone) being in deafening pain and seeing the the extent of a situation a person can handle (mentally and physically). i do not plan on actually doing this to someone non consensually. though, i think about it often.

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i got no intrinsic motivation for anything in life. i've mostly been doing nothing for about 2 or 3 years now living in my parents' house. they never told me i needed to get a profession, never really got taken seriously i feel like. and i feel like i want to do something in my life. i'm 26 now and i've achieved nothing. i have no money and i can't move out. this environment is toxic. i want to do something that im passionate about but i got no intrinsic motivation. i've basically tried every bit of advice there is. i've tried new things (that i can try based on my budget), i've tried going to therapy, i've tried making friends, but... idk what to do with my life. i got no friends, my family sucks and i don't relate to them at all... i feel like i wanna do something but i feel stuck. please help before i decide to kill myself some day at random.

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fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck this fucking dude in my class told everyone that i cut since he was the only person who wasn't dumb enough to believe my shitty excuse but come on dude this fucker just told everyone oh my god two of the people he's told so far don't believe it cause i brought up the excuse during the call (it had to do with my pc's desk) so they don't believe him but this'll get to the whole damn class holy shit i'm not ready for this

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ive recently been looking into the topic and was thinking i kinda relate? im 16 and a girl and i feel romantic attraction (i want to hug and kiss someone) but i don’t have any interest in going further with those i crush on, nor do i find people ‘sexy’ or ‘hot’. i am interested in the idea of sex though, but i have never had it so i cannot differ from just curiosity or just a want to have it. idk guys, just looking for an outside opinion. thanks :)

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ohjesusfuckingchrist it's not in my sweater pockets and if it's not there or on the floor that means it was either brushed away by my school's janitor or it's somewhere in my house oh fuck- i mean i can always replace it 'cause i got multiple sharpeners, but what if someone finds out about the blade at my home? i dont want that to happen oh fuck

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i am watching too much anime i guess and now i started feeling like i was just using them as to escape from reality i literally watched 120 episodes continuously without leaving my room even once. i watched them locked myself inside my room away from the real world i've been doing this for past few months now i already finished a heck lot of them and still craving for them i've already disconnected from my friends family way too much and now when i think of it is just destroying my life but still don't stop even i've realised that what do i do i'm feeling helpless

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i'm married almost 3 years ago but there is not one day i can stop thinking about the past. my life before marriage was terrible went through break ups cheated and harassed and i'm worried if will it affect my future. i'm scared to do anything in life.the past has been haunting me both mentally and physically. i feel terrible i have a loving husband and he does know my past.

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hello, i am feeling very lonely and empty and sad. i am in university, and i used to have very closed friends but since i am doing a double major. i don’t see my friends that often anymore. and that makes me sad. beside that, i have this very close male friend. we had been very close which my best one, and i always enjoy his friendship. just 1 month ago he went to my dorm and something just happened. i started having feeling for him but he said that he doesn’t. he just want friendship. i am not sure of the feeling too. since then i am different. i feel very lonely and empty and keep thinking about him. but it’s been 2 month already. i don’t know that empty and sad feeling is because i don’t see my good friends that often anymore or it’s cause of that friend. at the same time i feel like maybe cause i was very close to him, i used to see him everyday, we studied together so that why i am missing him as a really good friend? and could someone please help me to see it more clear what cause my sadness, and what should i do to get out of them and being normal again? thanks a lot

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it's been getting worse, to the point were i had a whole dispute in my head trying to even type this. i was in a crowed trying to get on the bus, and i started shaking hard. someone stopped me to ask if i was okay not knowing it would make things worse. i don't know how to handle it anymore

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oof ok so ima make this quick cause this has been botherring for like the whole day aha so i'm an athiest at t acatholic school cause i used to be catholic i just didn't believe in god for some time ( i havent told my parentscause there's a public school right enxt to my neighborhood and i like the school im in rn) and people found out so like everyday someone just starts arguing with me about god and shit and it's annoying as hell but anyways this guy who sat next to me (who sat next to my crush and was like friends with my crush who im also friends with) literally told me i'm like worthless and don't belong in the school and how the school would be better off without me and uhhhhhh i cut a bit but it's been on my mind alot uwu sorry if there are any typos i rushed this aha

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ive been very stressed lately, and it’s been so hard to feel good about myself. my parents are always complaining about how much i cost to “keep around” and with college coming up they seem less than thrilled to help pay, which would be okay if school didn’t prevent me from having a job. at this point in time, i just feel like i’m worthless- a waste of space that no one really should care about because i just use up time and resources, and i don’t have opportunities to fix the problems i’m seeing- which just leads me to feel like a failure. i dunno, i might just be stressed though

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i talk to myself almost everytime i don't know why i do that it's kind of fun to me and i like talking to myself it's like i have another me inside me is it ok to talk to myself or is it not? do anyone else also talk to themselves?

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who else visit mellow talk regularly like me

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everything is a blur nothings clear don't know where i am standing don't know where to go and paths are blocked nothings helping this is too much for me no one cares i don't care anymore last resort is over nothing can be done i am doomed so all the past things comes out like this haven't imagined this will happen why i am even writing this makes no sense what am i doing with my life where i am who i am what's happening don't know who are you don't know why don't know what do you know don't know i don't know come out no i will not you're ok no i m not everything will be not it isn't don't worry you'll be just fine hope so

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i failed in my exams i don't know what to do now i am really frustrated i don't know even how to get out of this mess i am literally devastated no one like me now i am becoming a burden to all of them no one cares no one listens i can't focus i can't stand up i failed i failed in everything i had nothing left it's horrible in here i don't know i can even survive now please help please

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for me, this is a happy vent, but to a lot of people it's not, but i'll put this here anyway. i'm finally making better cuts :o just made some cuts that bled throughout and eeeee

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i love my girlfriend, we've been together about six months and she's honestly the best, most interesting, intelligent person. but she really is emotionally a mess and i worry about her. she's had the hardest life imaginable, her mum was a heroin addict, she lived in massive poverty, she was sexually abused growing up. before i met her she tried to kill herself twice. she's on antidepressants which help her function but they don't make the symptoms go away. she's such a kind, beautiful person but she struggles so bad, i mean sometimes she's ok but sometimes she can barely motivate herself even to take a shower or clean her teeth for days at a time. i love her so much but it's kinda scary sometimes. i'm kind of her only friend and the only person she really trusts. she even says like i'm the only good thing that's ever happened to her. i know she wouldn't do anything like try to kill herself again but i worry about her all the same.

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i came to know that my mums having an affair,i saw nudes on her phone and pictures of mans private part,i didnt see it intentionally as in spying or anything. it just keeps bothering me.hes her boss and he came to our city today,i read some messages which said meting u was so intense ,i hope nobody noticed etc etc. i dont know if it should bother me,as its her life whatever she wants to do,but i feel betrayed? i'm not even close to her.shes in office most of the time,and the other time when shes at home,we dont talk more than a few sentences.i'm used to being alone by now. just this year,my grades started going down ,and i got depressed and all ,they just thought that i was making excuses for not studying.i have written many suicide notes till this day.i write it ,knowing that i wont be able to do it,but i still write it.in the end,i dont do anything.my father somehow found one of these letters and it gave me such a bad feeling.i just wanted to disappear.my father is always worried about things.and i felt so bad tht he read all that,i know he just got more stressed.he was already stressed out because my grades were going down.its not like i' close to him either.he makes me feel worse about myself.he tells to his friends in front of me,that how hes worried tht i'm so bad,or how he worries what will happen to me when i grow up,cause i'm such an introvert. i cant even talk to someone about this,cause i hv no idea how.all my life,i hv never been that close to anyone,and never have i talked about my emotions,so i hv problems talking about my emotions,i myself have no idea about what i feel. and now,i hv got anxiety ,which is just wow. just 6 months back,i was emotionally closed,i felt no fear of exams,i was just a blank person,i was neither excited nor nervous about giving exams or doing anything like that.but now all of a sudden,this school has changed me alot.i get all nauseous and anxious before the exams and am unable to study.i hv brought this all upon myself.i solely am responsible for this.knowing this,yet ,i choose to blame my parents.i just feel alone.

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hello, i lost my mom this past april. she was only 55. we were really close and she was my best friend. im definitely having a really hard time. i haven’t talked to a therapist or anything because i just haven’t been ready to i suppose. i have been having anxiety & panic attacks. i will be fine for a week or so and then have a complete breakdown and it’s like i start over from the beginning with grieving. it hurts so much. i finally was so desperate i googled online therapy or forums where you can vent and express yourself. this is the website i clicked on. it has been really rough..

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i live in a family of 7, with 4 other siblings. its really hard getting along cause im the quietest one and the 2 younger siblings (one is a baby, he doesnt count yet) are so damn annoying. i share a room with my older sister and we understand eachother more than our parents understand us, which is cool. our youngest sisters toys/stuffed animals are also in our room since we have no where to put them. our room is constantly a mess cause youngest sister (ys for short) always wants to “play” with them. because of this, me and os (older sister) keep getting in trouble for “not cleaning our room”, or “not keeping our room clean”. ys is always blaming shit on us and yb (younger brother, srry if its confusing). if shes mad, and hits you, she’ll start crying and yells that we hit her. then we’d get in trouble, or she’ll be told to cut her crap. recently os and my mom were watching a movie and one of our cats was messing with the tv, so our mom told me to come get her and put her in our room. no problem, took her upstairs and closed the doors. about an hour passed and ys came knocking in our door. i told her not know (btw shes a 4 year old with a dramatic sassy 16 year old teen inside her) but she comes over to the sliding door and opens it, allowing for catto to escape. i was pissed cause i didnt want her messing with the movie again so i told ys to get out. she clung to os’s bed and stayed there while i tried to pry her off, and she started crying. i was getting even more pissed cause i forgot to pause the video i was watching and was getting well away from where i last went off. she pointing to one of her toys so i gave it to her and told her to get out. she said she “was scared”, which is always a lie cause wtf is there to be afraid of? a dark bathroom? (btw our room connects to a bathroom through a sliding door) i turned on the light and told her to get out, but she wouldnt. about 2 minutes passed and i was extremely pissed, and my mom yelled at her from downstairs to get out, and so slowly she did. she was closing the bathroom door so i put my hand lightly on the knob to make sure she closes it all the way, its instinct, and supposedly “closed it on her toe”. i never felt anything block the door, not her foot, her toe, anything. it was bullshit. she started crying like she was dying and my sister came up to see what was going on. i told her she closed it on her toe, but i guess she didnt hear cause of ys’s screeching and my mom yelled at me to get down. she told to stop messing/bullying my younger siblings, stop being mean, etc, or else i would get my stuff taken away. i went upstairs crying and went to my room. im just tired of her bullshit. shes (ys) always accusing me of shit she did, which i hate. she always wants what i have, even if it isnt hers, and most of the time shell get it, “cause shes only four”. i had gemstones and lego sets and other items ive collected for 2+ years that she would mess with (without my permission) and eventually loose. good news is that i found most of my gemstones, one sadly broke in half. my mom would always say after i went to her basically sobbing that “she was only four, what do you expect? you never used them”. ys even colored on my school project i planned for about a week with several copic markers, leaving the caps off. i would hide my stuff in places she couldnt find or reach but she would always get to them. me, yb (younger brother), and ys would fight a lot, but most of the time its ys telling us to “get out” (of our room, tf) “move”, or just hit us for no reason. we would just get her back. whenever my siblings fight, its always them starting it, not me. why should i be the one getting in trouble for shit they did, and i had no part of? im tired of their bullshit

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thanks in advance for helping me. i am in high school and want a girlfriend quite badly. problem is i can't seem to find anyone who is single and not straight (and interested). my school isnt super socially liberal overall, but there still exists a handful of other people just like me, but in couples. anyways, i am tired of being the single nerd here when i have so much love in my heart to give, and i would like advice to change that. any help will make me so grateful.

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ok so um ik i already did a "i think i look up to cutting" one but it was kinda hard not to cut even tho there was a good suggestion. anyways, so i used to only cut my legs, but i recently started cutting my arms. my classmate noticed and he seemd like he believed my excuse, but idk if he really did. he seems like a nice person but i'm afraid he's gonna like tell his friends. one of his friends is my main source of happiness so im just worried they're gonna distance themselves away from me now.

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i like pretending im a hawk and flying around my house when no one is home. i also pretend to lay an egg. is this ok?

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i think i’m going to kill myself on new years. i needed someone.

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my wife had an another affair, decided to leave me for him (didnt tell me) then the other man said no to her asked ng him when he was going to leave his wife. she is in love with him. i know it was just a silly casual fling for him but she thinks it was real. our marriage is destroyed. im still in love with her and im devastated. desperately trying to rebuild but if i could just step back i would see that she is not a good person, conceited and not trustable. what a mess. my friends tell me to leave. i cant believe im in love with with this horrible person but i am. i dont even have the energy to ask a question here.

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so basically for a few months now, i've been feeling really down because of various reasons that i won't say rn. so i tried cutting a few days ago and i can't stop. it's not a full cut with lots of blood, but still cuts i guess? every time i think about how i'll do better at cutting the next time as well. it also isn't helping that it's christmas break, because my main source of happiness just happens to be someone at my school. so yaaaaay! ok someone help me i guess

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i have this feeling that my boyfriend is cheating on me. he won't let me see his phone but will go through mine, when i am gone or asleep. i don't know what to say or do, i feel like if i say something i will screw up like i always have. what should i do?

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i am slightly distressed.. since a lot of years i have this fetish of masturbating thinking of women in oiled hair. by that , i don't mean greasy. but oiled and plaited hair. i looked through the internet, but never found something similar to this

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i think i am confused about what my true sexual orientation might be

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so just a short summary; i was put into homeschooling cause my mom was afraid i was being bullied. i never do my social studies and science, a little math and some english (dont blame me that the material is so damn boring) and i have nothing to show my teacher. starting tomorrow my mom wants me to scan and send all my work to her and im always feeling guilty, stressed, afraid, etc. i just need advice on how to stay focused and someone i can trust to vent to

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i am a straight married man, but i always feel strong desire to wear women's thongs / g strings and tights and i feel totally comfortable in them, i am sure many women also feel same wearing thongs, that's why they are so popular and expensive. however i am just confused is it wrong to have such desires and i am not a gay. i never had any feelings towards men. i just feel when women wears tight jeans and tiny shorts, they look good and no one judges them, which is good. i am not against that. but men wearing tights and nice panties considered as taboo or strange ?

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i used to do everything with my mother. it was always her and i, and sometimes my bipolar father would come and visit. last year my parents got a divorce, and now my mother has started to date. now that she started doing this, it makes me feel very depressed and alone. i've stopped enjoying hanging out with my friends ( it was right before my mom started going out ) i spend my weekends hidden away in my bedroom (along with my cat :o) i don't even leave my room a lot. i and my mother are very close and now i just feel distant from her. every weekend we go to stores and stuff like that and now she goes out and leaves me until 12:30 at night. now he starts coming to my house where i accidentally walk in on them. she said would only go out like once a week, but now its become often. my mom says she doesn't want to force him and i's relationship, but i feel like its being forced because shes bribing me to talk to him, shes gave me 200$ and is now starting to bribe me with something i've wanted for a long time, a bird. when ever i confront her about it, she guilts me saying "why don't you want me to be happy? don't i deserve to be happy?" which makes me feel very selfish she also says " your getting older and soon you'll want to go out with your friends" but i'm not even in highschool yet, and i struggle with social anxiety hence, i don't have many friends, which makes me feel unwanted and useless. another thing she says is that " he is very nice can be like a father to you" but i don't want him to be, i just want things to go back the way it was. she often compares me to my father, it just makes me feel so small and a horrible person. im just feeling so alone right now and just want someone just to tell me i'm going to be okay. i want to run away from all my problems, but i cant because of im only 13. i just really wanted to share this because i'm a dire need to talk to someone and i cant tell the few friends that i have because what if they judge me and i don't want to be my friend. last time, i told my friend i just wanted things to go back to the way it was and she shamed me for feeling this way and continued to talk about how happy she for my mom. i know its selfish, that i want it to go back to the way it was.

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my boyfriend had recently broken up with me saying that he just stressed and how he felt he just deeply cared for me but he felt that he just thought a relationship wasnt very good for him, when a girl told me otherwise i asked my friends to investigate,he said he just didnt want one no more. i plan to text him one more time and tell him hoe i feel before we act like strangers again. is this a good plan?

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i started cutting on 10/22/18. now its the end of the week and i have cut at least once every day now. i feel really lonely and i really want to die. cutting helps the pain go away.

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my mom's retired and we both live off with my earnings (not big enough for luxurious things but sufficient to get by). there are times when i give her our monthly cash/addtl cash late cuz i'm so busy with work. now, i give her the cash. then she starts whining that she wasn't able to do this/buy that.. and that money nowadays can't buy much.. ugh fuck. this always happens, everytime she asks for extra cash or if i hand it a bit late. i don't wanna quit my job because it's gonna pay off great soon. but she just makes me feel soooo inadequate, always. idk what to do. i just wanna disappear so she can live on her own and not have someone to blame anymore.

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how can i connect with people?

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it was a fun experiment, but due to user comments i've taken it offline. thanks for the feedback!

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i really love the ny giants so much, anyone feel the same way? was barkely a good pick? i certainly think so

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hello, how do i talk/listen to people?

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i have been depressed since i was 8 i felt in happy with the way i look and i have a small medical problem and my family make fun of me for it and i just am always crying and i tryed selfharm and my family found out and instead of trying to help or talk to me and they did was yell and ground me and when i say i want to live with my dad they threat him

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i always have trouble leaving comments on reddit or sending text messages because i keep going back to what people think if they read it all day. sometimes i just delete them because i don't think it's perfect. does anyone else have that problem? how do you deal with it?

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i really like seeing the (small :) ) community here helping each other and sharing their experiences. i just wish there was more activity on this page! much love to everyone out there

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i've always been "high stress" and can let my depression run away with it. lately, mostly with work, i've found myself punching walls or screaming in my car. i only ever feel the need to for a few minutes (sometimes complete with angry sobbing), and feel drained after. any advice on coping with what feels like pure rage? i'm generally very level headed and often referred to as kind and quiet.

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the title says it all. i always have trouble getting to sleep and i toss and turn for hours sometimes and then wake up in the middle of the night anyway. im so tired all the time its really hard.

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this is really tough to explain but i have recovered a bit from my depression and i miss the feeling. like i really enjoy sitting around and stewing all woe is me and i like other people feeling concerned for me. its really embarrassing and i feel guilty about the whole thing because i know there are people out there that are legitimately depressed and don't have to "pretend" i guess. i don't know

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17, i don't even know how to meet people, i've looked at clubs and everything but nothing is near me. if i go to a mall or something it would just be me sitting alone at a mall, what do i do?

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i check my snap messages constantly and then if people read them and dont reply im like "did i say something wrong?" sometimes even emails to people ill keep opening and closing my phone. do other people do that too??

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i've been trying to work out to deal with my depression and i really want to get on a treadmill. im really worried about looking stupid at the gym though and like i don't know what im doing

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hi.. i have no friends... my 21st birthday is coming soon - i wish i could do something with friends, but i have none. i am so socially anxious, i hate it i hate it i hate it... 21 years old, 25, 30... and... i am afraid. that i will be alone. forever. i hope every one of you is having a nice day♡

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i have struggled with it a lot.. it has been tough. im on new medication now and its really helping. im actually feeling hopeful for the future and that i will start feeling better. also thanks to nifty green rose for listening to me today :)

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can anyone tell me if i'm simply angry or that i am covering up my real emotions. i get easily irritated and want to kill myself or to suddenly just disappear from the place i live in because of things happening in my home but then after awhile, when i lose all thoughts about it.. its like nothing happened. but i know what i felt and i know that it is gone.. although i really want to vent it out.. i don't.. maybe i can't

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i've never been a very high achiever, but i really tried hard when i got into uni. my grades were actually better than a lot of people's for my first semester. then i just caught this deep depression out of nowhere and i went spiraling down until i couldn't get out of bed. i feel better now that it's summer, but my gpa for my first year is now terrible and it would take crazy amounts of work to recover to where i want to be.

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i mean when i lay in bed i go an hug a pillow kind of affection. some people have sexual fantasies, for me it's just having someone who cares.

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thank you to the creator of this site. it's surprisingly therapeutic.

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does anyone else do this? its pretty compulsive and kind of takes my mind off my anxiety. im worried it'll result in hair loss if i do it too much.

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sorry if this is a stupid question. but its hard for me to deal with people/places i haven't been in before. this is my first time on campus and i don't want to seem awkward in front of everyone

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i dont know what im going to do. i still love her so much. she has had problems since the beginning but now she refuses to see her doctor and she is getting harder and harder to deal with her mood swings. its so hard and i dont know how im going to deal with it.

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i really can't tell. what are good ways of knowing

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i went through some trouble a few years ago and i kind of internalized some sort of resentment towards my parents. it was father's day yesterday and i didn't even call home and i feel awful about it.

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nothing happened to me it's just been getting worse and worse. i don't know what to do