👍¹³ 💡³³ ☕¹⁰ Big Boy Ben ● 18 April, 2019 ⚓︎

everyone has intrusive thoughts from time to time. some can be quite violent and still be in the range of normal. however, if these thoughts either begin to affect your quality of life or you ever consider acting on them for real, it is time to seek help. it sounds like it might be the former more than the latter in your case. a lot of times these things can manifest as the result of other pre existing disorders, for example extreme emotionality (like intrusive violent thoughts) to counter flat depressive thoughts or feelings of helplessness. another reason could be because you feel insecure or disenfranchised and this is a way to feel more empowered in your own life. either way, it is good to recognize and talk about these things. i would recommend talking to a professional even just once to gauge if this is truly a symptom of something else of if it is actually within the realm of normality.

💡⁵ Simple Round Rose ● 21 April, 2019 ⚓︎

i think that you might have manic-depressive illness now don't take my word on this i'm not a doctor but even if i"m right it is not at all your fault as long as you don't act upon these thought there is nothing necessarily wrong with the way you think we all think like that some times