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letter to my s/o i am not sure if i am just depressed or whatever

posted by Anonymous on 28 December, 2019

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you know me, you have known me for a long time, you know my wishes and dreams, i know you and your wishes and dreams. sometimes it seems like we're never on the same page as each other as to where we stand. you said you would never cheat on me and if you were going to you would tell me first. personally honestly i sometimes feel like i am just a sex toy for you, you just don't seem to care. you once told me that you were never really planning on marrying me but yet you asked me, this is why i feel like a sex toy also you said later on that you only married me because you felt like your mom forced you to marry me because we were "engaged" for so long. somehow from all of this i feel this way like i am just being used for my body. when i asked you when you really told me you didn't really want to get married, i felt sad, and hopeless like i crushed your dream and i felt like someone you could just dispose of if anything went wrong. the fact that we work so well together and have worked well together for as long as we have been together shows you that we're meant to be. we just have our problems that we have to sort through. i honestly am not sure why i feel this way, maybe i am just depressed or something, like i am no good and you can just easily get rid of me, even though we're married. i personally feel like when you said you would never cheat on me, the fact that you look at naked women behind my back and cam sites because yes i still know you do that shit and i don't appreciate it, it is just another form of cheating.

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Anonymous ● 11 February, 2020 ⚓︎


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it is a pain to be with someone who you cannot have that deep connection with . we are alone on this earth until we have someone who really cares for us and to know us and vice versa. your husband is not making you feel like a special person and being with him is giving you an empty (depressing) feeling. talk to him honestly and see if you can work o together to build a more exciting and connected life together . thats the only way you will feel happy being with him.. to create understanding. find out what he feels and if he does not have he right hopes and will to continue being married, its not worth sticking with him because the same feeling will linger and he can eventually cheat. if the relationship is not getting better, it is getting worse. do it for yourself , be courageous and connect with him. if he can open up , see you for you , as the person he is married to and stop distancing himself and instead live. another note, try to share more happy feelings instead of the feelings that you are not enough (all the self-critical thoughts) but be real . be positive and real to get to the bottom of where your relationship is going because ultimately you want to create a happy resolution