posted by 💡1 Mellow Striped Bee on 15 February, 2019
hello, i lost my mom this past april. she was only 55. we were really close and she was my best friend. im definitely having a really hard time. i haven’t talked to a therapist or anything because i just haven’t been ready to i suppose. i have been having anxiety & panic attacks. i will be fine for a week or so and then have a complete breakdown and it’s like i start over from the beginning with grieving. it hurts so much. i finally was so desperate i googled online therapy or forums where you can vent and express yourself. this is the website i clicked on. it has been really rough..
my dad commited suicide which depressed my mom who died a year later after her somkimg burnt our house down. i got sad and overwhelmed every so often like you said. i talked through it and still journal and made a list of things that make me happy so i can go to the list when i need to feel better. coming here is a good step. other people have survived tough things and you are here for a reason. you smille at ppl each day and you share your story when you feel safe and that helps someone else. i also take good days to write myself a letter in my jkurnal that i reread hen i need it. i know you miss her so much. but she is watching you and would not leave you alone even on the other side