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i fail myself again and again

posted by Anonymous on 12 February, 2020

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im 28 now and throughout my life i keep living in such a mindless way, get stuck in ruts or have anxiety, fatigue and struggle to keep up. i have yet to finish a degree and earn a salary or support myself. i am just being lazy and entitled and avoiding my responsibilities . i eat unhealthily, cannot stick to a diet, lay about and avoid doing the last of my uni work which will help me graduate. i have not put in any effort for months . it is unbelievable . feb jan dec nov oct sep aug july all these months that i had to do it and i have left myself with less than 4 weeks to write the whole thing. i am not living to create a good future for myself . i am wasting away and ruining my prospects . my daily habits are shameful , what am i doing with my time . why am i wasting my life. im 28 and my life has passed me by , the best years . im making myself ugly and ruining what i have . how could i do this? do i want to see myself fail ? do i want to feel ashamed to all my family and friends. why am i not acknowledging the consequences of my actions . i have been here time and time . dumb avoidant lazy , hopeless

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💡137 💎2 Delightful Scarlet Jellyfish ● 16 March, 2020 ⚓︎

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hey there! friendly striped swan's words were, indeed, really impactful. i don't have a lot more to offer you right now, i think you should read those words very carefully, how many times you need to, and make them stick with you. however, if you feel stuck right now, unable to make all those changes, try to start with only a few. your life isn't going anywhere without you, so you may as well start as small as you need to. take it step by step, until the very end, and don't try to change your entire life in just 5 minutes. if, even then, you feel yourself struggling with the goals you set, consider asking for help. it can be a friend, a family member, or even a therapist. don't let any obstacles prevent you from achieving your goals. and, most of all, good luck!