posted by Anonymous on 27 May, 2020
i used to wake up every morning excited about life. now i just live it. i look in the mirror, sometimes what i see it okay. other times i am disgusted and embarrassed especially because i know at the end of the day its who you are inside that really counts. then i feel even worse because i hate who i am. i have tried to be so many different personalities to make other people happy and to fit in and now i forget who i am. now i overthink and i feel "basic". i want to be something that other people aspire to be but i feel like i will never be my dream.
hello there! some people spend their whole lives trying to help others and trying to make them happy. that is, by far, one of the most admirable things a human being can do. however, when you try to make others happy at the expense of your own happiness, when you start breaking yourself to keep others whole, you begin to lose your own identity. when you forget who you are, hating what is left is what remains. i understand you are trying to figure it out, because you want to know which of your personalities best fits your sense of self. it's alright if you need to take some time to understand who you are. hear me out! i know i'm asking for a lot (in a rather ingenuous way), but don't hate yourself. try to understand that who you are right now is not who you'll be for the rest of your days. unveil what makes you disgusted and embarrassed and tell yourself that, one day, those things will be different, because you are willing to change them. understand that some things are not changeable, but who you are is something only you can control. i bet you are a terrific person, but that doesn't mean you can't improve. keep that in mind and, one day, when you least expect it, you'll wake up excited again.