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woo yeah mental health degrading era

posted by 👍3 💡25 Slightly Symmetrical Monkey on 12 March, 2021

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the title is sarcastic. anyways wow it's been a while!! i'm definitely doing better than my worst point ig but i've gone back to cutting daily which probably isn't a good thing, but it's much less than before. and now it's more of a habit kind of thing instead of me feeling shit and then cutting so it's not like feeling better will fix this. i think i'm fine with it though. maybe! but anyways uhhh it kinda sucks that i have no ways of killing myself but ive practiced stabbing myself a bit?? its a lot harder than a lot of ppl would think lol anyways thanks for reading

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👍3 💡46 Gentle Polychromatic Bear ● 13 March, 2021 ⚓︎


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hey slightly symmetrical monkey, good to hear back from you and good to know that you're feeling better than before. if in case my words sound a bit harsh, please take it as strong bear love and nothing else (maybe a tad bit of ignorance?). just know that my well wishes and hugs are genuine <3 i think you made decent progress to know and weigh how you feel about the process. many find themselves confused or frustrated about it. from what i gathered, you are doing for the sake of doing it or to have a routine? if you are, i implore you to try procastinating it. when ever you feel the urge, delay it. wait for a while, then some more. distract yourself with hobbies that you like. listening to music, watching/ playing videogames or talking to someone. i know you must've tried everything by now but my friend, even though i dunno you, i care about you and would encourage you to try getting out of this habit again. seeking higher amount of pain (the stabs) doesnt look like a healthy move on your part. you owe yourself, your mind and body, of best things in life. i may not know or understand, the emotional distress or numbness you're going through and im sorry that it is so.. but hun, please respect and be kind to yourself. one of the helpful techniques i've heard is drawing on paper or writing or coloring. you want to feel something? then try other ways to seek that feeling. endorphin high is addictive and one would need discipline to push through. i believe that you can do it, monke! heck, i can check in on you here every other day just for accountability. are you up for the challenge? (if that was a bit too brazen, you can always try the accountability apps online ^^' ) sending a blizzard of good vibes and bear hugs ᕦʕ·ᴥ·ʔᕤ

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oh! also, please reach out to a therapist as well. sharing the emotions will help you in processing them in a more controlled way! (sorry for long wall of text)

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👍3 💡25 Slightly Symmetrical Monkey ● 11 April, 2021 ⚓︎


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o yeah!! i think i'll try that when im older, i dont think my parents would let me ;;=v= ty though!! /gen

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👍3 💡25 Slightly Symmetrical Monkey ● 11 April, 2021 ⚓︎


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!!!! omg sorry for the late reply but this is so sweet!!!! thank u so much :d (imagine that the d there is a capital) tysm again oaosdoas im not v good with words but i rlly appreciate this thank u