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i'm spiraling and i dont know how to help myself

posted by Anonymous on 28 November, 2021

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ive struggles with eating disorders for years now abs have been in and out of treatment centers. ive been out for about 2 years now. however, im not doing better. ive been engaging bulimia behaviors and restricive behaviorsans i cant pull myself out. just yesterday i didnt engage in any of those behsviors and ive felt guilty avoyt it ecer since. idint know how to pull mysrlf out. i have a therapust but i feel that shell be dissapointed to find out what ive been doing. so im asking for or guidence or some sort of advice.




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Anonymous ● 28 November, 2021 ⚓︎


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hey there! it’s great that you realize you might be falling back into bad habits and it’s never too late to distance yourself further from them. never stop trying. you’re doing great, and you are brave for acknowledging this to strangers online. i’m not sure what to tell you about your therapist because i’ve never had one, so might i give you some advice and suggest you try to set yourself a small daily goal? it could start out small like “today, i will eat a healthy break fast” or “today, i will drink a cup of water”, then you can work your way up to “today, i’ll eat three well balanced and well portioned meals.” you could even add in small 15-30 minute workouts everyday, with a proper rest day of course, so you don’t feel like you’re eating too much and say, “because i worked out, i deserve this meal”, and it helps that you get fit in the process. of course, please don’t make it so that if you don’t work out that day you don’t deserve to eat. everyone deserves to eat and no matter your body type or size, you’re beautiful and you’re not alone. your goals don’t have to immediately change your entire schedule, but small changes like this will slowly work it’s way to becoming your norm and i hope this helps you in some way.

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Anonymous ● 04 December, 2021 ⚓︎


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im sorry you’re dealing with so much pain. you should learn to love yourself because as they say how could you love someone if you don’t even love yourself? you should accept your flaws and think they are a mark of beauty and honestly, trust in god. he made you perfect in his eyes....you are made that way because that was how he made you. i agree with the other person work on little steps and hopefully you would combat your eating disorder make a sign that you could look at to motivate you having a secret isn’t healthy so i suggest open and honestly telling someone so you could seek health if you aren’t comfortable telling your therapist tell someone else you trust like a friend or parent sorry i wasnt much help but i hope i helped good luck

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Anonymous ● 07 December, 2021 ⚓︎


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there's a part of you that cares about yourself. ask it, if i were to put myself first, what would i be doing? those actions, are the love we need to show to ourself. well done for reaching out and expressing how you feel and have been struggling. deep down we all want to feel care don't feel you are letting anyone down, your therapist, the journey is towards loving and caring about yourself more and being honest about your struggle to others is one way towards making steps to healing. you will one day be showing the same care to others, it must first be learn by treating the self kindly you are important and you matter i wish you the strength and courage to keep trying and living. we are better connected and not isolating ourselves with illness. we can be well, we must look after ourselves and lean into help. deep connections are formed through honesty i'm stuck too holing myself up and i'm so greatful that you showed your human side. i don't want other people suffering and i wish for you inner strength to get yourself out of this and towards the path of healing, as i do for myself good luck hun. sometimes we need to acknowledge we are human and that empathy can spark us to care about our selves again and not give up