posted by 💡2 Fully Fuzzy Lemon on 12 September, 2019
i'm not confident enough to talk with my friends when i'm sad for no reason because i feel like i'm annoying them. i always tried to keep my thoughts just for myself, i tried to convince me that i can deal with my self destructive mind by my own, but i'm so tired and just want someone to talk with without being afraid of bother them o make them feel sad too. i feel so guilty and dirty when i think that i'm everybody's second option, like i'm hurting them by doubting about our friendship, but it's how i see it. all my friends have someone that's a better option than me because they are happy with them, and have fun with them, and i understand it, i swear i get it and it's okay, i'm not angry with them because they're are my only friends and i don't want to lose them all, so that's why i'm posting this. i can't help feeling so lonely everyday and want to talk with someone about it, i tried therapy once but i can't afford it anymore. please, i would appreciate so much if someone replied me, thanks a lot.
hey, i kinda understand how your feeling right now because recently i went back to school and one of my friends moved school, which left only three of us and the other two are very out there and love singing in the halls etc. i often feel really left out and i’m more quiet so it’s hard to talk to them about anything these days tbh, so you aren’t alone my g😪
look what you should love yourself first.you are precious and you should know it.be calm and patient about your life.you don’t deserve to be someone’s second choice.make youself a priority to you.you should listen to your heart before caring about anyone else.don’t you worry.you are not the only one facing difficulties in life.we all go through harsh phase in life.just keep your self esteem up and believe that you are best.god will help you.
it is a dreadful feeling, that one where all you can feel is that you are not good enough, that you are not as good as the others. however, even if that feeling is real (because it is real and it is valid), it doesn't mean that reality is like that. you may feel like people doesn't like you as much, or like they don't appreciate you as much, or even like they don't even see you as an option when choosing someone to hangout. step by step, try to fight that mindset. try to convince yourself that your mind is lying to you, because it is. for me, it's almost impossible to see an individual as disposable. i could bet you are a terrific person, so full of your own individuality that it's hard to not think of you all the time. and the way you're thinking about your friends also shows us that you are a great friend and a nice person. always feel free to vent, especially when you are feeling lonely. do it your own way, on your own terms. the important thing is that you feel comfortable while doing it
Anonymous ● 14 September, 2019 ⚓︎
i completely get you. sometimes, i feel the same way. i just feel so stupid explaining someone i'm feeling down for no reason whatsoever. and i found out that sometimes, writing it all down help. it doesn't even need to be diary like, i just write it down as a story. anyway, my point is, maybe when you feel you want to talk to someone and you don't know who, you can try to write it down, maybe even write down that dialogue you want to have with someone. and, you can always talk to someone on this page, there are people who are willing to listen and help. and if your friends are your true friends and if they really care about you, you won't bother or annoy them if you talk to them, trust me. so, maybe, with time you can try to talk to one of your friends, i'm sure they care about you and that they will listen to you. if they don't, then they don't deserve to have a friend as caring as you. always put yourself first and don't let yourself be anyone's second choice! my point is, talk to them. maybe they didn't realise that they made you feel like you're their second choice.
Anonymous ● 17 September, 2019 ⚓︎
i understand you. i have the exact same thing, i look at people and i’m like god i want to talk to you but i’m to scared. i don’t ‘now why but i can’t do it. i cry at night very often and during days i smile like i’m ok while i feel like crying way to often. i am actually writing a story rn and every time i feel sad or frustrated i write it out. it help me . love from me
Anonymous ● 17 September, 2019 ⚓︎
how old r u by the way?