posted by 💡1 Light Sleek Bean on 29 August, 2019
i’m a single mom to three kids. my kids are ages 7, 4, and 2. i work full time in addition to taking care of them. i really don’t feel like i can do this. i feel like everything is working against me. i try my best to handle everything, but something always happens to make things 10 times harder. i really feel like nobody cares about me. children are naturally selfish, and i don’t mind giving my all to my kids. that’s what i’m supposed to do. but between them, my job, and my family... people only care about what i can do for them. me as a person, i don’t matter. i feel so worthless. people always say you should reach out to people for help. but i do. and they don’t care. people always say i’m superwoman because of all i do. but i’m not superwoman. im human and dying here. i want to go see a therapist, but when? i can’t afford to leave work. after work i have my kids. i hate my life so much.
you may not be superwoman, but you definitely are something else. however, it is okay for you to feel exhausted and drained. you live under a lot of pressure and you're starting to accuse it. you say that people only care for what you do for them, but why would that make you worthless? from what i can see, you have a big role in the life of many people (including your children) and the way you play that role is selfless and caring. people may not see the best in you, but it's them who are wrong. you are an amazing person and you should never forget that. you reached out for help and someone cared! i care about you and more people in here do so! if you find that you have nobody to talk to, come in here and vent. it would be good for you to go see a therapist, but, if you find that hard to do, then there are always another options. if you want my advice, the first thing you have to do is find a little bit of time for yourself. it may be an hour a day, but don't let anything else come breaking into that hour. find something you love to do, something that gives you joy, and do it. without any excuses. if you start to work a little bit on yourself, everything else will come to its place. sometimes, all it takes to fix your life is a little change. make that change and feel at ease as time will do the rest