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i wanna die

posted by Anonymous on 27 October, 2019

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well ive been suicdal for 2 years and i self harm. i haven't been happy since i was five. i tried to commit sucide once but obviously failed. im only alive cuz i don't want to cause my brother pain who by the means the world to me but today i realised there are a lot of people who care for him and that make him more happy than me. people who'll make sure he doesn't drown. i want to kill myself but i'm trying not to.




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💡62 💎2 Delightful Scarlet Jellyfish ● 29 October, 2019 ⚓︎


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hey there! you say you've realized there are a lot of people who make your brother happier than you do. what makes you think that?

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Anonymous ● 30 October, 2019 ⚓︎


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well we went to our cousin's house and he's really close with them and he looked so happy and in his element you know? i mean they know how to cheer him up

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Anonymous ● 30 October, 2019 ⚓︎


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well we went to our cousin's house and he's really close to them and he was really talking and laughing and in his element you know? whereas usually he doesn't laugh a lot and all

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Anonymous ● 30 October, 2019 ⚓︎


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oops i thought the first one didn't get posted

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💡62 💎2 Delightful Scarlet Jellyfish ● 30 October, 2019 ⚓︎


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maybe that was because it was a different situation, a different experience. happiness isn't only about laughing and smiling, sometimes it's about feeling calm, at ease, being comfortable with someone. we all have different people in our lives, and we all have different relationships with them. having a different kind of relationship with two different people doesn't mean you like one more than the other, and it also doesn't mean one of them makes you happier.

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Anonymous ● 06 November, 2019 ⚓︎


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yes i know that and i mean i get it but you know these days usually there are huge silence gaps between our conversations and all and usually it's cuz of me. oh and sorry if i sound kinda rude in my other posts but i don't really know how to talk about me without being emotionally detached...

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Anonymous ● 06 November, 2019 ⚓︎


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oh and thank you for replying... i kinda sound like an asshole on my main post... the all " i want to kill myself" makes me sound like an attention seeker and all... so yeah thank you

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👍2 💡11 Little Silver Peony ● 03 November, 2019 ⚓︎


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this is not right. there are people who love you out there, people who you love, and you definitely should not give up on yourself. have you ever thought about why you feel like this?

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Anonymous ● 06 November, 2019 ⚓︎


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well i don't go out so i doubt people are gonna miss me... i apologise if that sounds rude... feel like what? giving up on myself or something else? i don't want to babble on to find out you're talking about something else... and thank you for for you know opening my post and all... i really appreciate that