posted by 💡4 Constantly Orange Llama on 26 November, 2019
hey so haven’t been on here in a while things were going okay for me for a lil bit but for the past few days i haven’t felt like myself. i just got a new phone bc my old one broke and i decided to text this girl that i used to talk to back in february. i liked her a lot but i fucked things up the first time so i wanted to try again. but what i didn’t think about is how hen we talked the first time i was suicidal and i guess talking to her brings me back to that time in my life. i was hung up on her for over six months and i cannot break things off with her. since we started talking again i have felt like i’m dead and haven’t done much of anything except watch tik toks on my phone bc i just can’t being myself to get up and do anything. and the worst part about all of this is that but i can’t talk to her about any of this. and things are so awkward with us and we can’t keep convos going and that causes so much anxiety for me bc of how much i like this girl. i didn’t get over her the first time and idk if i’ll be able to a second time
👍86 💡4 Quiet Wooden Porcupine ● 01 December, 2019 ⚓︎
you have to bridge the gap between you two. it will be awkward since after a long time but it will be worth it
Anonymous ● 26 November, 2019 ⚓︎
and i forgot to mention that i haven’t been able to eat or sleep for the last week or so