posted by 💡4 Constantly Orange Llama on 26 May, 2020
hi. i havent been on here in a really long time which is good i guess. things have gotten a lot better but i almost wish they hadnt. im not sure how to explain it but with life going smoothly it leaves me feeling numb. especially with quarentine going on i feel like i have no purpose. i keep seeing these people on instagram and tik tok living the life that i want to live. looking the way that i want to look. and its infuriating that i know i am physically unable to live my life right now. and its not even because of corona. i have really fucking strict parents and im broke asf so its not like i can just change every aspect of my life so that i can finally be comfortable living life. im just coasting thru the days and i feel nothing. i dont feel hungry, happy, sad, happy or anything. at this point im just existing and hoping that things will finally start to fold out once i turn 17. but in the back of my head i know that they wont and idk it doesnt make me upset im just kind of disappointed? idk i guess the moral of the story is that it makes me literally nauseaus the way im watching my life waste away in front of me but i am completely numb to it. idk it doesnt make sense to me either sorry for wasting ur time if u read this whole thing i guess i just needed to rant or whatever
hey there! welcome back! i'm really happy to know your life has gotten a lot better. these last times have been rough and we're all dealing with them in different ways. i understand it must be really frustrating seeing others having the life you want to have, especially when you're not able to. nevertheless, remember that social media is mostly based on appearances. shallow moments don't originate fulfilled lives. it's hard to deal with something that makes you upset and disappointed, but, unfortunately, you're the only person who's capable of such change. if you feel like your life shouldn't be wasted away, grab it and make something of it. don't let the circumstances destroy your opportunity of being happy.
you should try to do new things! strict parents are pretty hard to get by however reading a good book, drawing chalk or paper, and jump roping are some things that you may be able to do! your life is very important and as hard as it may be to realize it please try your best to make the most of it! you are a beautiful human being and deserve the best! much love!