posted by Anonymous on 16 April, 2021
ive had ruts of anxiety and depression for about 10 years now . ive tried sertraline in the past and had hypomanic effect so wont be going on that citalopram i tried for months but no effect i know i need to take actions to prevent anxiety and depression but sometimes i just cant help falling into the loops and they can last so long and have a detrimental effect on my life. my life is back to zero where i am struggling and failing to keep up my first job . ive struggled so long just to get a degree . dropped out of one after falling ill. and in trying my second degree i had to take leave of absence during the first year and extra 3/4 year on the dissertation. .. all due to high anxiety and avoidance / poor concentration - fear of failing cycles , self neglect bingeeating / isolating and cooping up with my anxiety and hopelessness does life really have to be this bad with anxiety/ depression they are both such a lethal combination to get going , .. ive had more years of my life in setback(ruts, avoidance, downward spirals) and only a handfuls of months where im doing okay. before im back again in struggling with life with a&d can meds help me for life to not be in these cycles? and which meds? of course i will have to put my all to try change things, behaviours but im so entrenched in these patterns and anxiety flare ups which means ive never learned to cope and at minimum to do things well, and be independent. my life seems to have been wasted with a &d any insight with meds please?? can it get me out of these loops? or does it have to be psychology, expensive counselling? im not sure i can open up and do counselling right now and its too expensive. are there any psychological things that have worked for you before? to help avoidance and build hope? thanks in advance . im so lost and barely care about myself anymore its gone too far this time , im not showering for as long as i can and just stuck in avoidance . its too easy to not shower and stay in bed and be mindless because i cant face change or believe that i can ever do things better and no have anxious feelings, poor self esteem and anxiousness around people. i dont know how i can actually live in this world with anxiety. it causes the avoidance and soon depression because life becomes about avoiding fears and not an joy in living i dont believe in god or see that there is a possibility of one . i feel the world is a scary place and that i cant manage in it. everything is too complicated , its no wonder addictions are so easy to escape to.
i went to a place call anxiety relief zone in texas maybe they can help i had the same thing as you and they helped me so maybe they can help you
your life is definitely not wasted simply because you have some issues that make it hard. life can still be enjoyable although there will always be 'bumps in the road' one day at a time :) always here to talk. would like to know more about your struggles if your open to it. one thing i will say that i learned about you from just this one post is that your not a quitter or a user. you have been fighting back against this for what sounds like a very long time. you dont sound like a person who gives up or is entitled. your a fighter. that means that the chances of you finding a measure of happiness despite what you battle is very high :)