posted by Anonymous on 22 August, 2019
lately i've felt lonely, i'm overthinking things, i haven't seen my friends in a while and i miss them, but at the same time i'm dreading meeting them. i've kind of isolated myself and now i don't want and know how to stop this. i want to stop it but at the same time i don't. because i know isolating makes me feel super relaxed, but also too relaxed that i don't want to leave it. but it alse makes me kind of sad and lonely. i mean it's not like i'm completely alone, but still....plus, i know my friends are gonna be curious about what i was doing, but i did almost nothing. nothing exciting or important happened and saying that to them makes me feel bad, partly because i have a feeling they think i'm lying or don't want to share things, but mostly because i feel shitty and like they pity me or expecting me to tell them something, so i often try to find something interesting i can tell them, sometimes i even do things i don't feel like doing at the moment (nothing serious, don't worry), so i have some story or something...idk, all this is kinda bothering me most of my life. is it weird? i don't know exactly how to explain it....
Anonymous ● 22 August, 2019 ⚓︎
hi there. this is my first time giving an insight so i apologize if it does not help that much. first of all, it’s not weird to feel that way,all the of emotions you’ve felt has some kind of meaning to it.my advice for you is to make a change. going out of your comfort zone is a hard task, but try to take it step by step.if you try to talk to your friends, it might not be so bad after all.and just because you hang out with your friends,doesn’t mean you cant have some alone time anymore.you can relax all alone in some days,then hang out with them on the other.im just saying that being alone is’nt bad,but eventually you’ll feel empty.so you just have to balance it.also, just be yourself. they’re your friends, im sure they won’t judge you when you don’t have something interesting to say.even the most random and laidback topics can become an amazing conversation starter, or maybe just the calming silence when you guys are together.if they ask what happened to you,you can just be honest to them.i hope it helps.god bless
Anonymous ● 02 September, 2019 ⚓︎
hey, thank you so much for your advice and for replying at all! i'm kinda trying to do that but sometimes i fall in old patterns of isolation and not communicating with people. i'm trying to fight it, but sometimes it's just so exhausting, you know... thank you again, i really appreciate your reply :)