posted by Anonymous on 05 February, 2020
you've hurt me so much. i couldn't take it anymore. i burst. i told you i no longer wanted to be friends. your jokes hurt me. your words hurt me. but for the past week without you in my life, things feel quiet. too quiet. i miss the way things used to be. when we'd go exploring and when i'd give you those little origami swans with messages inside of them. i really miss that. and the day of the talent show, i can't stop thinking about that day. it was one of the highlights of my year. but then everything came crashing down in flames. you hurt me. i think i may have hurt you. but you don't talk to me. and don't seem like you want to talk to me. but then you go to my friend and tell her you feel bad about what you've done. i don't know which side of you to follow. do you want to talk or do you want me out of your life? i miss you. i hate that i miss you.
it's not clear what your friend or you did to each other for the relationship to melt away, so it's difficult to reason and give advice. but what i can do is commiserate. your friend seems to have been an integral part of your life, and now it feels like that part of you has been stripped away, leaving a gaping hole. you seem pretty close, so i can understand why you feel so hurt. if you really think you can move past what this person did, and you really want them back, i suggest you reach out and try to gain some understanding. make it clear how they made you feel, and you really want to understand why they did it. perhaps then you can be in a better position to either patch things up, or move on. this is another human being after all. if you open up genuinely, if you meant the same to them, then they will open up too. either ways, you will have some closure. or you may decide that what they did was too terrible for any chance to patch things up. good, you've made a decision. only by shedding the old, unproductive elements of your life do you create room for a new possibility to enter. be well my friend :)