posted by Anonymous on 18 September, 2021
this is so hard to write. i’m holding back tears. i don’t know where to begin…i’m gonna be honest, i know im not that good looking…heck, ask any guy i know they would tell you i’m ugly right off the bat and today this person even screamed out how he thinks im so ugly. i don’t know whats wrong with me that nobody likes or wants me. im just tired of hearing no. i’m not looking for a fairy tale ending because i know i wont get one. ive been told numerous times how my head is up in the clouds dreaming of some rom com romance, but hey, i’m only human…cant a girl still dream? i’m not asking for prince charming…but where’s my happily ever after? please don’t tell me to wait it out….ive waited for years! most of my peers are married with kids with successful careers and have their whole life planned out. i thought i would have my life figured out by now too, but i don’t. it scares me to think about my future. i just hate hearing for the last time i fucking never did….over and over…it gets annoying after a while….i know life isn’t a movie, but can we act like it is? i just don’t want to die before the credits roll around.
what would happen if we flipped the script? what would happen if we turned away from someone else's idea of happily ever after? what does that even mean? these stories are someone else's idea. what would happen if we disregarded the script and turned towards what gives us joy? who you are is an inside job. you alone get to decide what you love and what you don't. to truly live is to love what you love, no matter how small no matter how huge. the real romance isn't about anyone else. it's about leaning into what you love. nothing else matters. when we believe other peoples ideas of happiness, we cannot see our own. you are enough. you are alive. pretend for one day that everything you love is the driving force of your life.