posted by Anonymous on 18 September, 2019
i don't even know why. it's just that everyone including me myself makes me feel like crying. i am always cheerful but i hate things like being framed or being yelled at, and those two things literally happen to me all the time. i want to tell people that my problem is not a small one but when i think about it myself, the first thing that comes to my mind is "how can i be sad for such a small matter" i hate my thoughts. why do i think so. i am in trouble and i want people to understand me but it seems like i can't even understand myself. i just feel like killing myself at times.
the major problem you got is that you hate yourself. u have developed a mindset that u are always sad from inside. nd don't say that you don't understand yourself...see you are able to put forward all your worries and feelings only because u understand yourself. u are aware about how your mind functions and that's the best part. also, u get hurt more because you think too much about it... try not giving a fuck to the things that are not fuck-worthy. sit down for a while think how you have been feeling about yourself... filter out the things which really don't matter to you. do believe in yourself. when you will love yourself, when you accept that u understand yourself... you will see the change and then you will even find it easy to connect with people and share your feelings with them. don't give up on yourself... give up on the worries, those things which are not fuck-worthy and those thoughts which make u hate yourself. and remember it's a long process... it will take time but you will get better with every passing second you try loving yourself. 💞
Anonymous ● 19 September, 2019 ⚓︎
that's well said. self belief is important. you need to stop thinking that you don't understand yourself. you need to have faith and try to get out of that negative thinking.
i know, times are tough, and i won’t go into it (as it’s been extremely well explained by other replies) but whatever happens- please, for everyone one here who cares (and more importantly for yourself) don’t kill yourself. you’re not alone- you will get through this.