posted by Anonymous on 04 March, 2021
does anyone else just wonder what the bloody point of it all is? there are nearly 8 billion people on this earth. i’m in a medical profession helping people, but there’s thousands upon thousands (probably millions) of people world wide who do what i do, so do i really make any difference in the world? is there really any point in me being here? hardly anyone would even notice i was gone. and even if i stayed - it’s all just nothing. it’s all meaningless in the end. the roller coaster is the emotions you have to deal with along the way, but the events themselves that happen are essentially pointless. so i come here to share and vent because i have no-one in my life that i can actually talk like this to. it has to be all rainbows fluffy kittens. i feel so defeated. there really just doesn’t seem to be any point anymore - at least not for me.
the "rainbows and fluffy kittens" is some bullshit positive psychology that obliges people to distrust their own feelings and "put on a good face" even when they're feeling down; this makes them even more isolated because they make it impossible for anyone to truly connect them - so i wouldn't stress about that as to what the point is: it depends on the scale you're thinking; it's the same with anything that's alive; a tree in a forest is in a huge network of beings, and on a planetary scale can do very little on its own; but then to its immediate surroundings it makes a huge difference - throwing shade, providing space for moss to grow and birds to nest, etc. also, there's the butterfly effect - you might say something to someone, which will make them change their mind about some decision, and that might impact a further 10 people, etc.; this happens all the time; the system wants us thinking that our decisions don't matter, because that way we're easier to control; this is not true; everything you do matters; what you do matters to me as a fellow human cynicism is safer than idealism; to believe that what you do matters is risky, and is also what we all need; we all need you; there is some stuff that nobody can do but you; again, you matter; i'm sending you hugs