posted by Anonymous on 23 February, 2020
lately i been having suicidal thoughts. i've tried to ignoring them but it keeps getting worse.i almost acted upon it by self harming. sometimes i would hyperventilate randomly with these rushing thoughts of insecurity. me binge eating doesn't help either.im losing interest in things i normally like doing and i'm procasinatinate a lot . i think i need help
hey there! i want you to know how brave of a person you have to be to admit having suicidal thoughts. unfortunately, being suicidal is something that still comes with a lot of stigma. being suicidal myself, my response isn't going to be about self-overcoming, self-improvement and so on. i don't want you to lose hope, because being suicidal is, in no way, a death sentence. it's something you can work on, something you can live with. however, my most urgent recommendation is that you find a professional that can help you with your thoughts. don't neglect talking to a friend or to a family member, i encourage you to do that if you feel comfortable doing so and if you think that'd help you. nevertheless, finding professional help so you can get a diagnosis is the first step for you to take. after that, you'll engage in some form of treatment (all treatments are unique and adapted to the patient, you won't have to do anything you don't want to and your therapist/doctor will present you with all the options you have), you'll be taught prevention techniques, and you'll learn how to manage your thoughts and your impulses. if you're currently having any doubts about talking to someone about it, let me assure you that it is the right thing to do. it's hard, it's something that'll take some of your energy, but it'll make it better. please, don't lose hope. mellowtalk will always be here if you need to vent, but it doesn't count as a substitute for real professional help. stay strong!