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i wish i was somebody else

posted by 💡2 Unique Silver Bream on 05 January, 2020

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i hate myself so much. every single part of me. i hate how i look and i hate my personality. nothing has ever felt right for me. regardless of how hard i try, nothing changes, nothing ever gets better and, honestly, im sick of it. im sick of everything and, most of all, im sick of myself. i feel so stupid, so disgusting, so wrong and worthless. i dont feel love, i dont feel loved. hell, at this point i can barely feel... anything. i tried taking meds, seeing a therapist, i tried meditating, i tried socializing more, i tried everything. didnt work out. im so tired, i just wanna die.




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💡2 Sweet Psychedelic Sloth ● 11 January, 2020 ⚓︎


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please know that every person and living thing makes an impact on life. even if you do not realize it, you have positively impacted someones life in some way. by you reaching out this way, you've become important to me and i really hope that you find the happiness you are searching for. there are dark times in our life, and sometimes those dark periods last for a long time... but that does not mean you will forever be in the dark. you matter. you make an impact. im so sorry you are feeling the way you are, and i feel for you.

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Anonymous ● 11 February, 2020 ⚓︎


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hello, what you wrote hits home with me too. very hard and critical on yourself. you have tried a few things but maybe they are not the crux that is causing you to feel so bad. how you feel about everything about yourself, from your appearance to your personality sounds very all encompassing. you literally need an entire change of mindset to change your experience of the world. the world is mirroring back to you how you feel inside already. you can various things but carrying around the critical thoughts ultimately colours your experience of socialising , meditating , therapy. and sometime it is more time and patience , a deeper connection to these things or an other activities that will do it for you. you can dabble in things superficially but ultimately if you don't feel a connection and positive influence from it , it is hard for it to change you

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Anonymous ● 05 February, 2020 ⚓︎


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i actually feel very similar. i have struggled the past five years and it feels like everyone hates me, which is something i don't honestly get, but it's exhausting and i'm tired.

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Anonymous ● 25 February, 2020 ⚓︎


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whatever it is that you’re growing through, know that you’re not alone there are many people in the same position as you. sometimes words of encouragement aren’t enough to make you feel worthy, but just know that you really do deserve to be happy and to love yourself. dont look for validation in anyone, start within yourself