posted by Anonymous on 13 April, 2022
i’m probably going to get dragged for this, but whatever… i don’t know what is wrong with me. i hate how people are telling me i’m so ugly, retarded, or stupid. most guys in general, the ones who have my heart and are always saying “i never did!” and in a dream told me “for the last time nobody ever did! go fucking kill yourself! nobody cares! nobody likes! nobody wants you!” i just feel so stupid for having feelings and it’s gotten to the point where i’m basically praying to god that whatever it is that cause me to think about them would go away. i don’t want to cry or have feelings. i don’t want to feel pain, but that’s all i feel nowadays. i just don’t know what to do anymore. i try to talk to people about it, but nobody wants to listen. they would just make fun of me and make me feel like shit that i cry myself to sleep. i doubt anyone could really help me, but i’m just tired of all the abuse i’ve been dealing with, mostly, from rejection in its heartbreaking form to just sadness and pain. i just can’t take another heartbreak. please help if you can...i need all the help i can get! :)
why;;; when it comes to guys;;; relationships really/// you know you should invest in a relationship;;; it's one thing to not be formal with guys;;; also/// you must be;;; like,,, you must know;;; that it's like crossing a line or a divide of gender;;; so if there's a guy you like;;; this guy is/// someone you invest in;;; like you know;;; you give half of your heart to that guy/// for real.