posted by 💡8 Sound Silky Rose on 25 September, 2019
i posted a few days ago and even after getting better my situation at home got even worse, so i was about to commit suicide. i later started to open up to my closest friend who also had depression, and we both knew about it. i asked them if they would like to discuss our depressed lives and they agreed. so i've been texting them to get my feelings up, but recently i noticed that when my depression started making me think of suicidal thoughts, i no longer had a sweet tooth. i had a really sweet tooth in middle school but in between i lost it and don't have it now in high school. i drink more bitter or slightly sweetened tea than juice and if i eat maybe a sugar cookie or a cinamon bun covered in melted sugar, i wouldn't be able to eat it without getting sick of the sweetness. is this due to be being depressed or just growing up?
it's hard to answer that, it may be influenced by both situations or by neither one of them. your brain craves sweet things when you're in need of sugar. if you're eating healthier food, for instance, you don't have the need to eat as much sugar. you say you're opening up with a friend, someone that shares some of your experiences, someone that understands you. how do you feel about having someone like that by your side? also, how are you feeling right now?
my mood changes what i want and like to eat at the time i'm searching for food, so if i'm happy i'll eat a normal portion of food and if i'm sad i'll eat less food. my friend who i opened up to just talks to be about how they deal with depression, and that's mostly video games orhanging out with others. i also play them, but i'm more of a solo player and like to be alone to recharge. overall, i'm okay on suicidal thoughts but physically i caught a cold yesterday and had to do a mile run in gym class last period of school today so i'm just tired and wanted to talk. it seems like you're someone who frequents this site and talks to others, so i might pop in once and a while.
mood swings are like that, they usually change your appetite. it is a very normal symptom but you have to be careful not to eat less than what you're supposed to, so you won't feel bad in the future. being alone to recharge is a sign that you're more of an introvert, right? it's good to learn how other people deal with depression, so you can find new ways to do it yourself. it's always important to know what works and what doesn't. all people have different methods to cope with their feelings. i try to come here at least once a day. whenever you need someone, just pop in. it doesn't matter how you're feeling. if you're feeling okay, just come to have a nice chat. if you're feeling worse, we can deal with that.
it's great that you have someone you can talk to! you should always have someone there for you, it will make everything so much easier. no, i think it's not about the depression, it might be just growing up or maybe your taste just changed. im not the expert on that though, so i wouldn't really know. just wanted to let you know that we're here for you at mellowtalk. you will be fine. stay strong