⚓︎i feel your embarassment. i feel the same. i will read any advice given to you will interest,,,, but you are not alone. and whilst you always read and see programs about the terrible men... its not always the men who do the dirty.
⚓︎so sorry to hear that. i found out before christmas that my wife of 17 years had had an affair and like you im gutted. my advice would be time.. take your time.