im sorry that you are in a place where it pushed you to take such a decision.
i dunno what has made you feel so harsh on yourself.. but hey, i think you deserve the chance to recover. family never takes you for a burden instead they worry for you, hope to be better for you , help you out and see you in a better position. even when you find no way to get out of this, my suggestion would be to take up the opportunity to rise up. your father wont think any less of you. infact would be a lot happier that he could help you out. if it feels really heavy on your mind, you can always pay them back. not in just money, but also courtesy. use this emotion to make the best of this support. show that to the devil on your shoulder that has been telling you that you were/are a burden.
they wont be any better if you leave, my friend. so,please give it a thought and take a wise decision.
sending good vibes your way. hope you find strength in you soon.
it sucks that youve experienced this. but i dont think anybody in the world is useless. they have their own part to play.
"you are the only one who can be you... so be the best you" you arent useless. especially not to your parents. youve given them valuable memories, laughter and happy moments too. you dont know it but youve given them a purpose in life to work for.. to care for and to live for.
all the things mustve been in the heat of the moment. try taking to them in a much calmer setting and work it out.
youve said you have pent up stuff. we are here to listen and help you out. or atleast share our own experiences and support you.
if you wish for a change , be the change..they say. even the simplest of changes make an impact when you feel low. try having a routine, friend. one step after the other. it does help.