⚓︎hiya tranquil rainbow daffodil!
noble work, rightly done imo! you must've been kind and helpful! living up to your name perhaps :p
it has been quiet indeed. infact i came back here after a long time and was surprised to see the low tide. it was and still is a safe space with amazing listeners.
im doing alright. jobless since march but the savings are backing me and the family up. exams for a better position are looming and im hoping to get where i want to be. things have been slightly rough but we're gonna keep rowing! thanks for asking, daffodil.
how are things with you?
stay safe and happy!
that sounds lovely :') @you're being there for her in need. im happy for you both! id say you both are lucky to have each other. people like you give me hope for the future, so..thank you! :)
have a great day and stay safe, friend!
gaaahh, i have the crave and love for food and i cannot follow through diets where i have to cut off from the goodness. but ive found the secret!! the secret is to trick your body and manipulate your diet to include all the stuff but in healthier quantities.
for eg. whenever i eat noodles, i make sure that i add loads of veggies and protein to it and replace a part of the noodle quantity with them. egg is my favorite. :p
same goes for any meal. if you want to have some cheer-me-up food, you gotta have the strict healthier foods too! up the healthy percentages as you go. right now, my health food to gooey mouthwatering food is 70-30% which is way better than what i used to have. whenever you want to snack on something instant, try balancing the snack ratios too. the same way i suggested about meals. easy food : raw veggies.
also, have a group of friends who are motivated to workout with you. not just to loose the flab, but for a fresh routine. or you can post about it active fitness-related groups. (folks there are usually supportive!) maintaining a workout schedule, just twenty min of a day would help your brain to produce happy hormones and fight off the depression. it feels much better if youre able to do it in an area where sunlight's good. then you dont need to worry much about your appetite as well :)
hope this helps.
btw "a hug for my emotions" hits home hard, i had to clutch my heart in a dramatic pose. its awesome that you recognised what has been holding you back and trying to come out of it!! kudos!!
take care, friend!
your girlfriend as you said, is one tough lady. being through all of that and coming back brightly is no easy feat. she's an inspiration, really.
i've had a rough early life and gonna give you advice based on how id like to be treated. take it with a pinch of salt as everyone's different.
you're an amazing boyfriend trying to be an active support for her. my advice would be.. stay with her. in the dark of the night, when she's vulnerable and needs support, just stay with her, physical support helps a lot. cuddle her, try to distract her gently by food (this is me, sorry ^^') or a movie/cartoon or something. if she's crying ,let her cry and ask her if she qants to talk about it and go with her reply. tough cookies are usually guarded and proud (the good pride) they usually dont want to be a bother..
you know she trusts you and would come to you. id suggest you letting her know that (usually in a calmer setting, not while she's disturbed so that she can really process your emotions behind your words) you'll be there for her, whenever and however she needs. she'dvery much appreciate it, i think.
as for you, my friend. do not feel guilty about sharing your good memories of childhood and experiences. its not your fault. she might be happy for what youve had and you know she didnt have a happy life before, so make it happier now.
live life like you love. :)
im sorry if i read to much into the situation and went off tangent. ^^'
stay strong and happy for yourself and for her, my friend.
first of all, its 11/4 here.. so "happy birthday!!" :*
its sad that you are burdened with such heavy thoughts and dreams around/on your birthday but hear me out.
you are one of the most complicated creations in the universe. you are the one who can choose to be awesome or otherwise. you are the one who can define what's success is about. yes, society has some standards designed for everyone. yes, you might feel a lil inferior to your siblings. but that doesn't mean youre any less. you would never ever know the desperation of a mother for her child. that shows how precious you are. and imo, that also says youre a born fighter. you fought your way when you had 50% chance and this test ? pfft, if you sit on it with decent amount of fovus and hardwork, its gonna be easy peasy for you.
but thats what it needs, focus and hardwork. take sone time for yourself, try to gather yourself up. even if it feels like the weight of world is upon you, remember you are part of that world too. you can ease the weight on yourself. breathe. exercise. be kind to yourself.
you can always take the test again. youre still 21. you dont need to participate in the rat race. take it easy on yourself. try covering whatever you can in this month. make sure to practice what youve read and give your best in the test. whatever the result would come..would be fine vecause hey! you gave it your all. that is what matters.
i know the demons in our brain wont let you feel positive tut squish those buggers and outshine them!!
we would totally cheer for you! just take care of yourself, darlin.
isolation kinda sucks but its for the better and we will come out of this better for sure!
also, your name sparked a indigo striped zebra prancing around surprising everyone with its wit and that made me smile wide. thanks a lot! :)
please reach out whenever on here. someone or the other is always online and are super awesome to chat with!
take care, indigo!! toodles~
im sorry that you are in a place where it pushed you to take such a decision.
i dunno what has made you feel so harsh on yourself.. but hey, i think you deserve the chance to recover. family never takes you for a burden instead they worry for you, hope to be better for you , help you out and see you in a better position. even when you find no way to get out of this, my suggestion would be to take up the opportunity to rise up. your father wont think any less of you. infact would be a lot happier that he could help you out. if it feels really heavy on your mind, you can always pay them back. not in just money, but also courtesy. use this emotion to make the best of this support. show that to the devil on your shoulder that has been telling you that you were/are a burden.
they wont be any better if you leave, my friend. so,please give it a thought and take a wise decision.
sending good vibes your way. hope you find strength in you soon.
it sucks that youve experienced this. but i dont think anybody in the world is useless. they have their own part to play.
"you are the only one who can be you... so be the best you" you arent useless. especially not to your parents. youve given them valuable memories, laughter and happy moments too. you dont know it but youve given them a purpose in life to work for.. to care for and to live for.
all the things mustve been in the heat of the moment. try taking to them in a much calmer setting and work it out.
youve said you have pent up stuff. we are here to listen and help you out. or atleast share our own experiences and support you.
if you wish for a change , be the change..they say. even the simplest of changes make an impact when you feel low. try having a routine, friend. one step after the other. it does help.