⚓︎im sorry about your situation... i think you should talk to your boss. it's really important that you be happy, and it seems that your financial situation is one of the key reasons that caused you to feel this way. you can do it, don't give up! we care about you at mellowtalk, feel free to vent
⚓︎tell the person who is closest to you. they can help. i have a friend who just came out a year ago, she told her best friend. when she told us we were shocked at first, there were some people who took a bit longer to accept it but in the end it was all ok. it's not that bad, don't be too scared. im sure you will gain acceptance. :)
⚓︎its alright to feel this way. something is definitely wrong with your relationship and i think u should talk to your fiancé. sit her down and have a serious talk with her. or if she brushes you aside then write it out in a little romantic note and tell her how you feel.. if she really loves you then she shouldn't ignore you if you tell her you are confused and don't understand. work things out with her. good luck! and... happy mellowtalk birthday :)
⚓︎you should try to stop playing so much, maybe limit yourself to 5 hours a day, then 3, then 1. it wont be easy but it'll be worth it, i promise. it's not good to get stuck indoors all day... you can do it!
⚓︎maybe you should give him some time. maybe like the first time he was actually busy then the second time the third time he got annoyed that you kept on contacting him. just give him a while then try again.