⚓︎heyy, thank you i do know im not the only one feeling like this but it feels less lonely having read that.
it amazes me how you got me so well, i certainly have other underlying issues that go way deeper i do have a habit of repressing things since i was child and even though my life wasnt the most messy guess some situations in my life werent deal in the best way. i do regret not having tried to go to therapy as a child and wished my parents would have forced me to go as well as themselves tbh ....sorry here im rambling again. anyways i suppose thats right, it surely wouldnt feel this bad findind my gender if it werent for other things making it heavier to deal with.
i do dress masculine already and i naturally have a masculine appearance which contributed to questioning my gender in the first place, i did tried goin with male pronouns it feels alright sometimes and others doesnt, same with female pronouns tbh until now the most comfortable have been neutral pronouns but in my native language those dont exist.
oh and i appreciate the suggestions of trans youtubers i did know miles, heard before about keara too but didnt know she was genderfluid.
once again thank you! i needed to hear that, i also believe you will find your answer.
⚓︎honestly i didnt feel that comfortable with that therapist when it came about talking bout my gender and other deep stuff but i only went once so i can't expect much right away... but yea guess i didnt click with them though they appeared nice at the beggining they later on rushed me out of the room when the time wasnt even up so yea it didnt seem like it was the best first experience with a therapist i suppose. anyways right now i'm dealing with other health stuff so guess my mental health gotta wait for a lil while longer. thank you once again tho! wish u the best
⚓︎yeah you're right rushing things wouldnt do me any good right now i probably need more time to evaluate myself and well certainly a couple of therapy sessions.
honestly went to a therapist a few days ago but left there even more anxious but guess i should try a gender therapist
either ways thank you for your insight!