⚓︎i think that you have social anxiety i also have that trust me it is going to be hard but soon you will adjust to it i have not completely handled mine myself but i will be willing to give you my contact info so i can help you adjust take as long as you may need no one cares
⚓︎i think that you might have manic-depressive illness now don't take my word on this i'm not a doctor but even if i"m right it is not at all your fault as long as you don't act upon these thought there is nothing necessarily wrong with the way you think we all think like that some times
⚓︎hey its okay that you don't think there is a god and just know that you're not worthless even if everyone says that just know that you're all going your own pace so don't worry about any one even if you're going slower then them