⚓︎hello, friend! first of all, i hope you know that nothing about you is "disgusting".
secondly, i want you to know that you do fit in this world simply by experiencing the emotions that you are. many people question their gender or sexuality and i think that sometimes we put too much pressure on labels. are you trying to find a label for yourself and your own joy? or for other people to categorize you? if it is the latter, i hope you know that you do not have to be someone for anybody else. you do what makes you happy. and if you are questioning things right now, that's okay! we do not have to know everything about ourselves at all times. it's a journey. and maybe you can reach out to a professional to help you on that journey. good luck with everything!
⚓︎hello! first of all, i just want to say that although i don't know you, i think you are wonderful. i think that maybe instead of focusing on trying to becoming someone else or figuring out who you are, you should focus on finding things that make you happy. nobody else. i think that when we are doing things that truly make us happy, we are being our best selves simply by allowing ourselves to feel joy. and the rest will come naturally! also, think about this; nobody is truly "basic". i know this sounds cheesy, but we are all inherently different and unique in every way. once we are released from the labels of "basic" or "cool" or whatever it may be, we find ourselves. our unique selves. our happy selves. good luck to you!