⚓︎very sorry to hear about your loss. very brave of you facing that situation for the closure you felt you needed. i hope that things do get easier for you as time goes on even knowing it may take a very long time. im sure he would be proud of the effort you make :)
⚓︎i was so impressed seeing that number yesterday !! but yes, i too saw an issue. for the first 30 seconds, we could talk fine. but then, the messages stopped posting. i wrote three, then waited for almost 10 minutes. when i didnt see any of my comments post, or theirs, i closed out :(
⚓︎another point to try and keep in mind is that trying to control the symptoms of an issue is not as effective to long term help as is trying to address the root causes. often, but not always, the root cause of this is someone not valuing themselves as they should. when you dont value yourself and therefor dont value taking care of yourself, overeating or overdrinking can be one of many effects. perhaps your brother needs to be reminded of his worth and of the worth of a healthy positive active life. that could take time though.
⚓︎sounds like your both human and have issues. but it also sounds like your both willing to put the time and effort into repairing this relationship when you both could be moving on. thats something :) that says there is a high chance of something real existing here. keep at it :)
⚓︎your life is definitely not wasted simply because you have some issues that make it hard. life can still be enjoyable although there will always be 'bumps in the road' one day at a time :) always here to talk. would like to know more about your struggles if your open to it. one thing i will say that i learned about you from just this one post is that your not a quitter or a user. you have been fighting back against this for what sounds like a very long time. you dont sound like a person who gives up or is entitled. your a fighter. that means that the chances of you finding a measure of happiness despite what you battle is very high :)