⚓︎i believe in you. everything changes, even if everything is bad it will change. it has get better in some small way. im proud of you for writing it somewhere to make it real and put it behind you. its a new day and a new journey. my love to you, even if noone else seems to right now.
⚓︎my dad commited suicide which depressed my mom who died a year later after her somkimg burnt our house down. i got sad and overwhelmed every so often like you said. i talked through it and still journal and made a list of things that make me happy so i can go to the list when i need to feel better. coming here is a good step. other people have survived tough things and you are here for a reason. you smille at ppl each day and you share your story when you feel safe and that helps someone else. i also take good days to write myself a letter in my jkurnal that i reread hen i need it. i know you miss her so much. but she is watching you and would not leave you alone even on the other side